~The 3very Fo0tprints Th@h I leav3~

Blessings

2011-04-05T07:59:00.001-07:00

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

(Chorus)
'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if the thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we'd have faith to believe

Chorus

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home

Chorus

What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

I heard this song when i was in office working...Tis song reali touch me....I recall thru out the journey bck to feb and hw i have been thru with it.....Thru out tis 3 mth i have been in a truly disaste and learn how to choose my own life as well as my future..I been doubting and confuse in a period as too many thing are unexpected to happen. All this started whn i 1st enter into deloitte for training where everything does not goes smoothly..1stly are my rented house issue whr i have irresponsible tenant and more problem kip cuming up...which i reali have to find way to face it....after the issues for rented house...i got a unreasonable boss and sarcastic him...

Follow up my relationship have suddenly broken into piece without a valid reason...Slowly everything from up turn down to zero base...I whn into worst deep emotion...I even think leave tis placeses just lidat...But after all i re-think that He will alwiz faithful to me and He will work our sumthing in my life...Everday and every week went by with up and dwn....I take it to fight over all and i reali want to thank God that i had get over stages to stages...

He its great cos everything are work in a way to give us a great outcome...=D

Be thou my vision

2010-12-14T05:04:00.000-08:00

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart;
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art.
Thou my best thought, by day or by night,
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light.

2. Be Thou my Wisdom, Thou my true Word;
I ever with Thee, Thou with me, Lord;
Thou my great Father, I thy true son;
Thou in me dwelling, and I with Thee one.

3. Be Thou my battle-shield, sword for my fight,
Be Thou my dignity, Thou my delight.
Thou my soul's shelter, Thou my high tower.
Raise Thou me heavenward, O Power of my power.

4. Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise,
Thou mine inheritance, now and always:
Thou and Thou only, first in my heart,
High King of heaven, my Treasure Thou art.

5. High King of heaven, my victory won,
May I reach heaven's joys, O bright heav'ns Son!
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall,
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.

There is alwiz up and down in life we have to go thru but God its faithful where He will not leave u alone....At time i reali feel i am far away from God's distance and suddenly i feel i am lost...Time getting closer each and everyday~~~and what have i done in my life and what i have done for our Saviour??

This song reali touch me and wake me up....make me feel warm in His embrace....

Father,at time in life i know i have do wrong....i alwiz expect so many thing in my expectation but not Urs....I am sorry and i confession every single thing into Ur mighty Hand...U are gracious to me Father....I nid u in life more than everything around tis earthly place....Father, i also wan to surrender sum1 into ur mighty hand..I pray for u kind guidance to show the right path....anointed this person with Ur holy sprit and let this person knw how important and precious to have U in life...i continue pray and ask in thy name Father.....In Jesus Most precious name i pray...Amen...

the blossom day~~~~~

2010-11-24T20:09:00.001-08:00

I am glad and hapi as i can go back home liao.....YEAH~~~but on other hand i going to miss sum1 alot....^^

All this day i been bz-ing on assignment and coursework that coming up....after all i feel a little bit relax till today but i gotta get to worried about my result lu.....

Result is cumin out soon kinda worried for PM now as the result expected by out lecture its below then the expectation....herm~~~wondering how much will my CW be????

SO fast time passes and we are in week 9 liao...T.T i still got 2 CW test and 1 assignment to complete the whole sem b4 goin to final....haih...

Beside that, i kinda worried about my internship job too...my daddy say that EY company had full employment liao....T.T sob sob~~~how wor???till today i am still waiting for 3 more company to reply me...herm~~~~

Should i start send out my other 3 application????shud i????herm...What a tuff decision i had in mind.....@.@

PS:i am so worried and i am praying hard that my prayer will be answer~~~Father,sorry for what i have done in my life and i might be a disobedient child to u...but i ask for repentant and forgiveness in UR name as well as i nid ur guidance to live a life like u O Lord....pls be with me and purify me with Ur blood...In Jesus Name i pray, AMen~~~

congratulation darling~~~

2010-11-19T00:24:00.000-08:00

So fast its a friday again and another week gone just lidat.....currently its week 8 and time reali passing very fast cos week 9 its coming....last assignment dateline soon...oh no~~~~i did not even know how to start write tis assignment...i need guidance from God....Daddy...pls help me...:D

Thru out tis days,i feeling bad and would wanted to apologize to Daddy so much....sori for not being an obedient child...and i knw tat i shud not blame thing and push away my guiltiness to make myself betta off..Hence, a big apologize to You Daddy...forgive me as i change myself each day to be like You...=D

I also wan to say thank you Daddy for being such a great provider...i am super happy as i been told by my darling that he got his internship job...i am so thankful and praise the Lord that he had took away my worried...^^

darling also tell me tat he is scared and worried tat he could not cope in his internship...hmm...well,darling dun worried abt internship...i knw u can do it well cos u have the potential to be outstanding...jia you ya darling....*hugs*

PS:once again darling,congratz for getting your internship job and i am so proud of u...keep it up darling and make sure u do well in ur internship...dear dear love u and will alwiz support darling no matter wat happen...*hugs* ^^

The greatest love

2010-11-14T02:20:00.000-08:00

Today, wake up...my tummy ache...T.T i feel so so sick but i still nid to drag myself to clean up the house and study my test...i kinda worried abt my test but i think and believe i can make it thru....^^

Even i am in that condition but i feel great cos i recall wat darling told me yesterday that its so lovely to me....i am glad that u feel han fuk not oni bcos u have u lovely family but to have me too....=) thank you darling for putting me in ur heart...*hehe* Thank you darling for loving me from the bottom of my heart....i feel so warm cos u have love me so much...*hugs*

I also feel warm today cos darling take care and concern abt me even i have tummy ache....thank you darling for tell me wat to do whn i am tummy ache and take care of me so much...I love u Darling.....^^

Anyway,wish we all have a great blessed test tomorrow and hope that we all do well in it....^^
Darling...jia you jia you in exam ya....love u much much.....*hugs*

PS:i am missing u...^^

hapi hapi day~~

2010-11-13T05:06:00.000-08:00

verse 1
Everytime I leave to head out on the road
I wanna take you with me to save me from the cold
No matter where I go wrong
you'll be there to turn it into right
I will love you every moment of my life

When I'm on an airplane, flyin' cross the sky
I know you're on a trainride, stations passin' by
No matter what the signs say
However in my mind you are by my side
I will love you every moment of my life

Bridge:
everyone misses something
And I know time changes everything
All the love that you have to give
you should give just as lost as you're holding that someone

Verse 2:
I'd travel cross the great lakes to get to where you are
and even if forever wouldn't be too far
so baby when you asked me
to be the leading lady by your side
I promised to love you every moment of my life

I am so hapi yesterday....my darling sing song to me and suddenly felt that he actually do have talent and sounded like aka JJ Lin....LOL

I feel so touch...cos this its the 1st time he sing to me...lol...i will waiting for the one day arrived for him to ply piano to me....=)
I truly feel so thankful to have him...cos he being with me whn i am lonely and alone...even its late and might been questioned by his family he also willing to stay bck with me...T.T (suddenly feel i am so bad) hehe....in the car we were discussing abt food and food.. he told me tat his hse area thr got alot of nice food....but hor nvr bring me go thr eat de...lol...but after that he promised me tat he will bring me go eat thr...=) he also promise me tat he will bring me go 'little genting' aka lookout point...hehehe i told him tat i wan to go to bkt tinggi too...and he also promised jor...lol...*sweet* but sem break la...hahahha *sori darling, for havin me so demanding* XD

Yesterday, we whn out makan dinner together...feel so great~~we whn to a restaurant to makan cos i told him i miss home and i hope to eat sumthing tat got home feel..i also told him tat i wan to eat fish so much...lol so we whn to the restaurant and eat fish plus vege....heheh

At the moment of eating i feel so touch and sweet...i feel i being pamper by him so much...^^

Thanks darling...I will appreciate every moment of u & i will love u every moment of my life....

thanks for ur love darling~~

2010-11-13T04:47:00.000-08:00

Thank you darling for loving me thru out this 2 month and 9 days...even within thru out this period we did go thru tuff time tat seriously worst but thank you for being sensible and understandable on dealing up the problem....

Once again~~thank you darling for being with me alwiz even it is good or bad...i am touch tat u have been alwiz support me and being with me...u reali have been a great bf...

Thank you for letting me feel the sense of security once again...Thanks for no letting me down again...

Below are a little poem for u darling~~

All my life
I’ve been in the rain
Till you came and brought me sunshine
You turned my lonely nights into happy days
And I found love in your little loving ways.

Life has never been that easy
But you were there, behind me all the way
Somehow you always find a way to make me smile
And everything just seems to turned out right.

Thank you for the good times
Thank you for those memories
Thank you for coming into my life
And thank you so much for loving me.

You changed my life the day we met
I never felt your love was needed
You always believe in the things I say and do;
And I don’t know how I would have made it without you.

just one last dance~~

2010-11-05T22:50:00.000-07:00

Just one last dance....oh baby...just one last dance

We meet in the night in the Spanish cafÃ©
I look in your eyes just don't know what to say
It feels like I'm drowning in salty water
A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise
tomorrow will come an it's time to realize
our love has finished forever

how I wish to come with you (wish to come with you)
how I wish we make it through

Chorus:
Just one last dance
before we say goodbye
when we sway and turn round and round and round
it's like the first time
Just one more chance
hold me tight and keep me warm
cause the night is getting cold
and I don't know where I belong
Just one last dance

The wine and the lights and the Spanish guitar
I'll never forget how romantic they are
but I know, tomorrow I'll lose the one I love

There's no way to come with you
it's the only thing to do

Chorus 3x (until fade)

Just one last dance, just one more chance, just one last dance

Another song that sounded meaningful...i am not sure the true meaning but i will find it out the song true meaning after i watch the movie "one last dance"..i believe it will a touch and loving movie....

I believe in everything in life that its given....i believe in my own relationship whr i will continue to have faith and trust to work tis out....i knw its will not be easy as me and my boyfriend will go thru a tuff situation in life....even its hard to go thru i will still stay with him to go thru tis situation....no matter wat may come in our relationship but i believe if we are firm and we solve it together everything will goes well....

To have a prefect relationship its not easy cos before it turn perfect we have to goes thru alot of trial in life....for now we wan to archive our sucess in study and life as well as in out career....we wan to live in a certain situation...i believe me and my boyfriend will work hard for this....

Once again i wan to tell my darling, jie ming...tat no matter wat i appreciate and thank you for loving me and being with me no matter in wat situation....thank you for being a great boyfriend...thank for teaching me and thanks for guiding me....i will never give up myself as well as u too....thank darling for being with me...thank darling....^^

Lastly,i love u my darling...forever and ever....love u~~~

2 month annivesary darling~~

2010-11-04T04:42:00.000-07:00

Our anniversary means a lot,
Much more than any another day;
I celebrate my love for you,
And cherish you in every way.Through passing time, our love still grows,
A caring relationship to explore;
Our life together gets better and better,
And I keep on loving you more and more.

Thanks for being with me all this while and loving me no matter wat happen...even we reali go thru tuff time but i believe tis reali test our love...you been a great boyfriend toward me..even tis relationship its not a 100% perfect relationship but it had ply a great role between us...

Each day grow~~i will continue and kip on loving u~~being with u~~in every single situation~~even thou thr its more down den up or more up den down...i will still with u n loving u~~i will support u in everything u going to do and achieve...

Thanks darling for bearing with me and staying with me...I love u,Yong Jie Ming 4eva~~^^

2010-11-01T09:50:00.000-07:00

站在十字路的交点
该怎么走
我却只剩回头
除了你给的伞我再也没有
别的借口
去拥有你的什么
你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
牵手和分手来自同一双手
做回朋友
我却为何不懂挽留
你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
所以情愿回你身边
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远
是否太晚路已走远
我的眼眶泪太满
走不回你身边
你能体谅我有雨天
偶尔胆怯你都了解
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间
我突然发现
谁能体谅我的雨天
此刻脚步会慢一些
如此坚决
你却越来越远

This song reali touch me alot....just worried that i will be like what the song are sang....

I feel insecure as thing happen twice in this relationship...its seem to b so fragile toward me....i am scared and worried....i cried and cried in these two days and i had think alot...i reali think thru include my life....things tell me that if i gotta lost u in life i think i will not dare and able to take another love cos everything seem to fake and so unreal to me....and more thought~~guys are people who could not keep their true promise,cant long love a galz for life,could not give full trust to galz and could not give security to galz....

I am sure of myself very well...i had hurt thru many time and i knw i could take this situation again...i believe i will turn mad abt it....mayb just leave tis place....

I am thankful that he are dare to stand up and talk to me abt wat he had think thru and thought of that cause situation occurs....i knw its tuff and it will be hard to go on....i knw this relationship will not b that strong...but i believe as we work together i knw we will break it thru....

Jie Ming...trust me love goes thru trial...dun give up and dun b shaken with those though u had....all those are not that important as long we are thr to settle it....trust me we will make it thru...i knw u wan to achieve ur goals...as everyone had it...let me hold ur hand and let us achieve it together...i am hapi with all ur achievement u have done...even thou its not a big and huge wan but still its a great one...i am proud of u darling...i am seriously proud of ur achievement...

Jie Ming,u told ur childhood issue...
let me tell u...i dun care and even bother wat will happen to u in future....as long as i love...i seriously wan to b with u for life and will take gud care of u....even ur childhood issue will occur i will take it up as a challenges...cos i love u...i shud support u den leaving u...i knw wat i wan and nid the most....even u could not give me everything i nid or fulfill every single wishes i have...but i will still thankful cos i got u in life....

i nid u not other else....everything(exclude God) will not important than u.....

let kip a promise btw tis relationship:
1.nvr leave no matter wat...cos we will solve everything single problem together...

so yong jie ming,pls kip ur promises as i will kip my promise to u tat i will not leave no matter wat....

i am serious darling....so let work out sumthing which its betta....
i love u darling...for life...
PS:kip me safe pls...

the most miserable day~~

2010-10-30T23:26:00.000-07:00

Today i hav run out of mood and sad....til i hav run out of mind and done sumthing freaking stupid....

Dues to this i hav cause my suffer in an trauma~~~now my hand had alot of scar and alot of blue black.....

i dunno i am insane or i had been a worst situation....i dun wan u to leave me..pls dun leave me...i nid u..u tell me u are not my everything..

let me tell u....u are my everything...i am not lack of love but i just wan to love sum1 and i wan the most...i tell myself not to fall in deeply but i had love u deeply...and i hav into u..

u had slowly gain my trust with u...but now why do u wanna to broke it???why u wanna me to lost the trust on u and lost the love on u??

u started everything and make me clam and comfortable...but why now make me miserable and hurt???

i dun wan tis to happen again...pls.....do not cause tis sitaution to happen again.....

thank you~~

2010-10-17T02:26:00.001-07:00

I dreamed I went to heaven
And you were there with me;
We walked upon the streets of gold
Beside the crystal sea.
We heard the angels singing
Then someone called your name.
We turned and saw a young man running
And he was smiling as he came.

And he said, "Friend you may not know me now."
And then he said, "But wait,
You used to teach my Sunday School
When I was only eight.
And every week you would say a prayer
Before the class would start.
And one day when you said that prayer,
I asked Jesus in my heart."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

Then another man stood before you
And said, "Remember the time
A missionary came to your church
And his pictures made you cry.
You didn't have much money,
But you gave it anyway.
Jesus took the gift you gave
And that's why I'm here today."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

One by one they came
Far as the eye could see.
Each life somehow touched
By your generosity.
Little things that you had done,
Sacrifices made,
Unnoticed on the earth
In heaven, now proclaimed.

And I know up in heaven
You're not supposed to cry
But I am almost sure
There were tears in your eyes.
As Jesus took your hand
And you stood before the Lord.
He said, "My child, look around you.
Great is your reward."

Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am a life that was changed.
Thank you for giving to the Lord.
I am so glad you gave.

This its a great song that i shud share to everyone here....Bcos of the great Him we had changed....we shud appreciated every single in life that He had gave us...and He had been alwiz be my awesome God....thank you for everything and thank you for changing my life....

A surprise relationship...

2010-10-15T09:05:00.000-07:00

Through out my days in colleges....life had been good...everything seem to be bless by God alot and He had truly awesome for blessing me a bunch of great frenz and supportive frenz....

A semester just passes and now i am in the second semester....tis semester itself its a tuff semester...i hope thing will goes out right and everything can be overcome...i have also started a relationship with my classmate in the month of september..

i was superb surprise with his confession toward me...all this while rumors and gossip been spreading ard btw us and i did not expect tat thing occurs so suddenly...and most surprising it tat he no in love with me due to tat reason but he is in love with for who am i....i truly thank God for him.....

i had been kip praying tat he will get to knw Him....i will cont pray over it as i had share chris to him and i will nvr give up bcos i believe that miracles will happen in the same time i knw God will do sumthing on it.....i pray tat God cont give me strength,power,courage and word of wisdom tat i can cont share the Good News of God to him...i will nvr give up on him and i will share the love of God as i love him now.....

i will kip prayin for tis relationship too.....

i hope greater tis will occur in my life and relationship...and hoping more soul will b safe~~

Prayer~~
Father,i pray for confession of my sin and over thing i have done through out my life....i have not been an obedient child of God...i confess all sin and action i have done into ur mighty hand as ur blood of christ have covered over me.....Thank for dying on the cross for me and everyone and thank you for blessing me so much as well as being with me no matter in wat situation i am in...i pray tat God will continue overseeing me and bless me in my life...i also pray for my bf tat tis soul will be safe and holy spirit will come and anointed him...i also pray for this relationship to b a firm and strong relationship...i pray and uphold every single thing in to ur mighty hand....In Jesus Most precious Name i pray...Amen..

new beginning of everything in life~~

2010-10-15T08:48:00.001-07:00

It had been a long long time i did not updates tis blog itself due to the buzz-ness im facing.... Anyway,its great to b bck here writing all my thought,feeling,gratitude,emotionalism,fact and so on....

Through the tuff one year...i hav learn to be even more independent by myself...After the last semester of diploma, i am being alone on doing my thing but i truly thankful cos i have God and Chen Lee(my close frenz) to be with me when i am down,be my guide when i am lost in certain situation and encourage me in everything... *thank you Chen Lee*

After Diploma, i have to learn to be stronger in everything that i do cos i am no longer have frenz like Chen Lee to be with....i have to learn to face and stand strong in thing that happen.....Thank God that i have been and truly know how to stand strong....

In Adv Dip 1 semester..It had been a tuff situation that i am going through and i personally devote myself on concentrating in study...i have forgive and forget my past....Remember 1st day of class i learn to be extra hardworking then before...Think even more....I thought i will be lonely and sad cos i have no more frenz with me that its close....but i truly thank God for a bunch of frenz that had been so supportive to me...Yong Jie Ming had been my nice frenz that i have mix with, secondly will be wei xiang.... after those day...my frenz circulation had increase even more like mey see,phei yee,mun chun and so on.....it had been great....being a student in adv dip its not a joke on playing ard like plyground....

After the 1st semester i have learn alot and i truly thank God for my great result....even its not the perfect 10 and awesome result but its still a great result i nvr get....and i also wanna thanks Yong Jie Ming for being a great supportive,great frenz,great partner,great study member and thks for the love and extra care to me....

Now i am in the 2nd semester..i hope thing will goes in its way and i hope thing will goes their way...i pray and hope that i will able to cope my this semester subject which is AAP,PM,Taxation,and also CF...^^

reveal the true time...

2010-03-24T18:11:00.000-07:00

It had been a long time i have left this space for a moment of silent....studyin and life cumin up and starting with a great chapter...

let me update abt the 7 station cross that held in SIBKL....it is awesome session i will ever had, whr u go thru wat God reali go thru in his journey of life...every station does bring a certain meaning to everyone...as i start the journey in 7 station coss its had been not easy fo me...i start with prayer where i reali do nid God strength and power to walk on tis 7 path....start with waashin ur frenz leg...at tis station the atmoshpera reali puzzle me...i pause a while of thinkin and name come in for those had done toward me tat i been forgiving them....i kneel dwn and pray for that person and started to cry out....

after that i start to move on to the next station whr is the last supper held....it reali refelct me alot and make think twice in this station.....proceed to the gathsamene whr u hear Lord's prayer for u.....its reali awesome at this moment...i do feel warm and comfort and the touch of our Lord....at this place i prayer to Lord abt everything in my life and i pray for ppl who had sin against Him....after this station....the atmosphere getting deeper whr i feel guilt and pain whr seeing judas betary him and i put myself in the position i dun hav the courage to pick the sword itself and i confess those had not be done and i felt sorry as he had fill my cup of love toward me....next whr trail start to fight within the momenof thinkin and start to reflect even more....

comtinue this station i feel guilt for wat i had done...i feel sorry for followin the crowd and for not believin myself......i felt reali guilt and as i took up the brush to pain a dot on my hand i feel the pain tat he had bear for me.....in addition,as i proceed i come to cross point on decidin on followin the crowd or followin by bearin the cross on ur shoulder..i took a reali be courage and deciding to follow Him...At the moment itself i feel warm and comfort for i hav done a great decision in my life....As i goin all this i felt scared but in the same time i feel secured....

As i go thru for the few last station its whr reflectin more.....i come to a place of darknest on reflectin his story with mine....i realised Lord had been much more suffer den everyone of us...he had been so faithful and kind for not make us go thru same thing as him....He knw our limit and our stand.....as i go thru it i feel comfort as i nail the sin on the cross i feel rejoice and thankful for wat he had done....

the last station as i come to his table deep in prayer i can feel God present in the place......as i read thru the lovey letter i feel comfort and my tears just roll down....thank Lord for waiting for me no mattter wat....

after all this i went down to search for my cell mate...i starting crying deeply and in the reali moment i feel he is hugging me and tellinis ok my child i am right here with u....dun worried for wat is cumin....i here and alwiz here with u....i feel reali warm and comfort.....

thankyou Lord.....*to be continue*

life are no short,cause thr are still long way to go....

2010-02-27T23:02:00.000-08:00

life reali are not tat short as u thought.....

this sem is my last sem...thank you Lord for bring me thru out this life tat i have been...it is not easy to go thru but u had been faithful to me....*hope my cumin exam result will b gud**kip my finger cross*

thing had been come and go this whole years...i had finnaly let go every single thing tat been a barrier in my life....it is not easy to go thru but thank God i had come out for it.....realise those change i had been again....
---->been closer with cell group member<3
---->gettin closer with walk with God<3
---->getting more lovin with family<3
---->getting more strict in my own personal life
---->been stronger and more frim in those thing that might hurt me
---->willing to accept failure and trial

i am startin to learn alot in life.....i reali appreciate the time and tis time reali realised tat i can b mature as nvr thought of it....so nice and i feel cool...

this sem is short sem within 7 week i will finish everything...just hopin everything will b smooth...i been choose to b a cls representative this sem...well,at 1st reali though it a burden but i will just took up this responsible..i knw God will guide me thru....so now in the position of cls representative,Digi CA(mayb quitin) and soon a worker for vincent...XD

been hapi thru out my life now....alot of joy and fun havin together ard especially with my cell...yesterday celebrated alvin kor kor bday..heheh...surprise was gud to b done..

1st time make fish steak but thks God it taste good...heheh...mash potato and also salad....hehehe
simple and nice...XD

den again cheese cake.....^^

recall friday had a fun day with my cell member....we went to eat and jln jln and watch movie...we had watch http://asianmediawiki.com/All%27s_Well,_Ends_Well_2010

This movie was alrite but little blur and not reali understand wat they wan and wat is all abt....cos is so messy....but thr are certain thing tat is funny lo....XD (rating:5/10)

lookin forward with those thing is cumin up next....heheh....

cheerz all the way....

evelynz....:P
ps:lookin forward for later chap goh mei dinner...XD

a song in my current heart...

2010-01-18T01:02:00.000-08:00

他的镜框留在
ta de jing kuang liu zai
His light passion is left

某一节车厢
mou yi jie che xiang
Behind in one of the train cabinets

地下铁里的风
di xia tie li de feng
The wind blown from the train

比回忆还重
bi hui yi hai zhong
Is stronger than the memory

整座城市一直
zheng zuo cheng shi yi zhi
The entire city is

等着我
deng zhe wo
waiting for me

有一段感情还在漂泊
you yi duan gan qing huan zai piao bo
As there is still a love relationship flowing around

对他唯一遗憾
dui ta wei yi yi han
The only regret towards him

是分手那天
shi fen shou na tian
Is that on the day of the break up

我奔腾的眼泪
wo ben teng de yan lei
My stubborn tears

都停不下来
dou ting bu xia lai
Won’t stop falling

若那一刻重来
ruo na yi ke chong lai
If that moment

我不哭
wo bu ku
I didn’t cry

让他知道我可以很好
rang ta zhi dao wo ke yi hen hao
I can let him know I will be fine

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

轰轰烈烈最疯狂
hong hong lie lie zui feng kuang
So powerful, so strong, the most passionate

我的梦
wo de meng
My dream

狠狠碎过却不会忘
hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang
Was harshly shattered yet I won’t forget

曾为他
ceng wei ta
I have once

相信明天就是未来
xiang xin ming tian jiu shi wei lai
Believed tomorrow is the future with him

情节有多坏
qing jie you duo huai
Despite how bad the situation is,

都不肯醒来
dou bu ken xing lai
I cannot come around

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

跌跌撞撞到绝望
die die zhuang zhuang dao jue wang
Falling and crashing to hopelessness

我的心
wo de xin
My heart

深深伤过却不会忘
shen shen shang guo que bu hui wang
Was deeply hurt yet I won’t forget

我和他
wo he ta
He and I

不再属于这个地方
bu zai shu yu zhe ge di fang
No longer belong to this place

最初的天堂
zui chu de tian tang
The initial paradise

最重的荒唐
zui zhong de huang tang
Has become ridiculous

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢
ru guo hai you yi han you zen mo yang ne
If there are still regrets what can I do

伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
shang le tong le dong le jiu neng hao le ma
Been hurt and then learnt does that mean I will be fine again?

曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
ceng jing yi kao bi ci de jian bang
We once leaned on each other’s shoulders

如今各自在人海流浪
ru jin ge zi zai ren hai liu lang
Today, we are individuals separated in the large ocean of people

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

轰轰烈烈最疯狂
hong hong lie lie zui feng kuang
So powerful, so strong, the most passionate

我的梦
wo de meng
My dream

狠狠碎过却不会忘
hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang
Was harshly shattered yet I won’t forget

逃不開愛越深越互相傷害
tao bu kai ai yue shen yue hu xian shang hai
We cannot escape that he deeper the love, the deeper we hurt each other

越深的依賴越多的空白
yue shen de yi lai yue duo de kong bai
The deeper we rely on each other, then there are more white blanks

該怎麼去愛
gai zhe mu qu ai
How am I suppose to love?

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

轰轰烈烈最疯狂
hong hong lie lie zui feng kuang
So powerful, so strong, the most passionate

我的梦
wo de meng
My dream

狠狠碎过却不会忘
hen hen sui guo que bu hui wang
Was harshly shattered yet I won’t forget

曾为他
ceng wei ta
I have once

相信明天就是未来
xiang xin ming tian jiu shi wei lai
Believed tomorrow is the future with him

情节有多坏
qing jie you duo huai
Despite how bad the situation is,

都不肯醒来
dou bu ken xing lai
I cannot come around

我爱他
wo ai ta
I love him,

跌跌撞撞到绝望
die die zhuang zhuang dao jue wang
Falling and crashing to hopelessness

我的心
wo de xin
My heart

深深伤过却不会忘
shen shen shang guo que bu hui wang
Was deeply hurt yet I won’t forget

我和他
wo he ta
He and I

不再属于这个地方
bu zai shu yu zhe ge di fang
No longer belong to this place

最初的天堂
zui chu de tian tang
The initial paradise

最重的荒唐
zui zhong de huang tang
Has become ridiculous

如果還有遺憾是分手那天
ru guo hai you yi han shi feng shou na tian
If there are still regrets, it’s that the day of break up

我奔騰的眼淚都停不下來
wo ben teng de yan lei dou ting bu xia lai
My stubborn tears won’t stop falling

若那一刻重來我不哭
ruo na yi ke zhong lai wo bu ku
If that moment I didn’t cry,

讓他知道我可以很好
ran ta zhi dao wo ke yi hen hao
I can let him know I will be fine

hope to live in the past but impossible....

2010-01-18T00:40:00.000-08:00

i reali hope i could live in the past and nvr move forward.....

i miss the day i am with u...how much i care,concern and worried abt u.....but fate let us not stay together....

i will like to say avery big thank you to u for lovin me so much....u such a great person i ever met...

the moment with u....u had gave me a sense of security and comfort to me...u had support me and b with me alwiz too....

tis few day,my mind suddenly recall all the sweet memory u gave me....every min and second is such a sweet memory.....

the way u concern,love,care,worried and think abt me.....is so sweet.....

now,i wish u all the best and may God b wit u and with ur relationship....

i knw u will treat her like how u treat me....*sweet*

till now....

*imissyou*

hope no more nonsence....

2010-01-18T00:24:00.001-08:00

argument...
misunderstand...

i had enuff n i knw u too....i tot i could share all my feelin and all kind of issue with u but i guess i am reali wrong...i tot respect and to b true n fact is share every single thing with u....now i guess i am reali wrong.....

all the msg regarding feelin,prob,issues....shud not be send out....i hope to pull bck but is reali too late....i shud not set up the fire and let it blow up....

i was reali hapi tat u do understand me but the understand had turn to pist off,annoy......think bck over and over again....why i had been such a failure.....i guess i reali disappoint u alot....

do hope heard answer from u and not from myself only but at all time i nid to decide for it.....

i reali hope those question n feelin did not share out....i guess now we are as usual we are....

i guess hundred word of apologize could not repair the relationship btw us.....

concern,love and care tat i alwiz say its alwiz true...it will nvr deny it cos i reali do care and concern abt u.....

i knw i shud change all the weakness i hav.....i hope u give me time....to change....
time needed for me to b a betta person....to strong,to use proper expression and to use proper tone....

i decide to leave this for a moment and come back to look to u in a betta personality....
promise no more feelin and question text to b send out....

hope u truly understand kabi.....* i reali nid time and i will nvr leave u*

blessed and memorable day...

2009-10-18T20:25:00.000-07:00

Hi reader..

It had been a while I had no update myself…Sem 2 yr 2 is here again…I am all way to challenge myself…I know it is reali hard to go thru but I know by all my afford I can make it unique and happen..begining of the week of college I have my Digi Music roadshow. Its was reali tired to do but I try my very hard to work it out…Life getting as normal as I reali thought…few more days I turn 20^th..so worried the day come…still hope tat I can alwiz still in the 10^th century but anyhow I still had to move into 20^th…^^

Well,did not expect anything for my bday itself…tot it will normal day pass…but it reali touch and happy to have so many ppl celebrate my bday…^^

1^st,my hsemate…thks chen lee and simone for taking the initiative to celebrate my bday and thks ex-charision for the love u all gave me on the day even is early but still the best..i am reali touch…nearly cry out..~huhu~

2^nd,thks boss, my love one, Yellow army and Digi…take such a great time spend with me…even I am in the camp but u all still make my day well..^^ thks a lot boss for celebrating my bday….thks for spending a sum of money to make my day well…reali thks a lot boss…thks for bring me to laundry tat day….hehe…I do reali enjoy myself and I proud on meeting DJ FUZZ and listen the song on air…^^ thks boss for spending my day well and thks for the brotherly love u had gave…thks kabi for being with me…even thou ur plan had been ruin but I still thks for being with me..i knw u have are tired but u still thr with me…I reali appreciate such a wonderful day….even thou there is nothing u had brought to celebrate with me but the greatest gift is u..thks for ur time and days…thks dear,I LOVE YOU!!

3^rd,thks for my cell group member for bringin such a surprise for me even my bday had past 2 days away…thks a lot for surprise me the cake…thks a lot…^^

Back to the camp….

The camp was good...i do appreciate the every moment had past…I hope this camp will let everyone learn a lot especially those existing one and also the new comer….thks U2 for being th motivator to everyone who came….last day of the camp, I reali want to cry but I try to kip in my heart….but I am hapi in the same time because dear had come back the one that I met…I am so happy…At the moment ,I hugs him I felt so warm and so comfort…my burden and tired had gone….thks dear for loving me…I LOVE U!!!

Throughout the day are so so tired but with him…the feeling just gone~~~I admit I felt it a little while u are not treating good…but I do apologize being like dat dear…

PS:I hope thing goes well…mayb more improve are added into it…cos I do see love and I do love u my dear!!

wat is tis life mean to b..

2009-09-13T07:39:00.000-07:00

I am living a life with full of miserable and trial...

wat shud i do??

how shud i react??

how shud i feel??

i dun hope to live a life like tat but mayb it had plan thru out which i hav to be....i been living in a life with fear and disappointment...

like the feelin of love...
everytime wanted to fully grab whole it i will surely lost it bit part by part...
everytime i step deeper i surely lost control on standin firm...

i dun hope the day come...
i dun hope the time had reach to the stage...

exam life....
everytime i been confident with wat i can but i alwiz been disappointed....
everytime i been stressing so much but the outcome seem to dissatisfied by ppl...

why??
why i alwiz like tat....

i am lost the purpose of life to b a human??
i been throw to a dungeon whr full of fire...
go thru suffer...
bitterness life??

love,
eve_gal

is this a days

2009-08-06T23:17:00.000-07:00

hi everyone...time passes fast a week in digi roadshow and everything seem to be alrite oni....i felt tired and dead after those event....

this few days i felt tired and sad...my hsemate...my frenz around....i am reali sad... :'(

i get fed up with ppl around me except sumone...ppl around seem to over and frustrated..i am reali fed up and annoyed of it...sum time i wonder wat the freakin problem with them...i knw this is rude but i just cant take it...i felt so annoyed reali annoyed...u all seem like a BITCH la.....

this whole i am reali sad and fed up...everything seem to ruin and my life reali felt so miserable..:(

i miss sum1 alot...wan to meet him up so much....

love,

eve_gal

i felt so miserable.....

2009-08-01T23:49:00.000-07:00

hi all....time passes so fast another weekend had passes....

i have flu today it make me so uneasy to do my stuff....haiz....

my past i had clear with it and i am glad to have sum1 with me and wum1 i can tok with...i am reali glad with tat....

thks alot dearest one....

today i had stuck in a miserable feelin.....his's frenz like me....huh...i am reali stuck in this situation...sumtime i ask myself...why??why??why???why me??no other???*shud i be greatful of it??*

sumtime i just dunno how to express it...i duno how can i lower my personality....haiz....

PS:i hope now i can tok to sum1 but he is not awake yet i guess...huh...*shud i tell him??*

narrow stress

2009-07-26T04:51:00.000-07:00

today chruch sermon was reali great...the sermon reali impacted my life and thought...i felt i being naif in everything i do...i being stupid for wat i am now...i felt tuff everytime i reflect bck..

i knw it over and is past...i could not go bck whr i came from....i nid to move on but how can i strive it thru..i nid alot of STRENGHT and POWER to work tis out...i am reali frustrated of myself for being so so attitude and for being so rely on frenz....i am so stupid and naif....huh....

i am upset,frustrated and fed up with myself...i being so so immature in my past..i cry and cry whn i reflect it..i felt a heavy rock just pressure me and i try to remove but i just could not.....i dunno why and i dunno how to do it so....i ask for help but thr is no one...i am alone and i lost sense of security and sense of direction...

i am totally lost....i try to wake up but i just could not i felt of fallin off the step stone....i am scare to love, to care, to concern, and etc..i just dun wan to do thing and make thing rite...i seem to run away from everything if i reali can....i starting to hate myself again and i knw it not rite....but i dunno....i am totally being process but evil sprit...i try to fight for it....i pray tat God will with me....and i knw HE is thr but i just nid to work thing out....

WHAT CAN I REALI DO???

I AM REFLECTING MYSELF.....

CHEE CHEONG.....

PAUL....

ROBIN.....

STUDIES...

FAMILY AND LIFE.....

I AM LOST NOW....

I DUNNO WHICH DIRECTION.....

bday preparation for sum1...

2009-07-26T04:40:00.000-07:00

it had been so long i did not update it...bad bad bad.....

i had shifted from my old place to a new place and there is no internet access...

i am reali so sorry for not kip updating...here i am updatin abt myself and past thing happen...sweet thing in me had ended with a stupid reason he gave me..at time i reali fed up myself i dun felt like think and facing...i felt like slp it thru and hide it thru but i knw it is impossible to do so....

i end with him on my mom bday and i reali upset...thing happen all sudden i knw i nid to get prepared of it but i could not....i tot i am strong but i am sorry i am not....

i live it thru cis God still concern me and frenz are still care for me.... but i knw i will not b my past strong cos i had wen thru alot and this time another time....i am fragile in love..i scared to love,to care and etc..i am reali fragile for now...i dun dare to do anything for now....

i had prepare a bday surprise for kabi...but aprt of it does not sucess...haih..i am sad of it and i reali upset....i could b come a good planner....thru out the planning i felt tuff cos i actually reali lost...in the middle of preparation on thrusday i got little conflict between my hsemate...we does not fight but she just being to comfortable to throw temper on me...i am being too kind and stupid to let it had happen...i realise it getting worst now...i try to run from thing and try to hide but i knw it can last long..i am prayin thru cos i reali dunno wat can i do to clear it all....

i am glad he is hapi n i am try my best to give wat i can....once again hapi bday....

~you are da best kabi...not nid to say thks...but is reali a blessin...i shud say sorry for not doin tat good...~

held??

2009-06-04T10:56:00.000-07:00

Here is a song which attract me long time and again i hear it again....

Natalie Grant - Held

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.

Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.

Chorus:
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

This hand is bitterness.
We want to taste it, let the hatred know our sorrow.
The wise hands opens slowly to lilies of the valley and tomorrow.

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

Bridge:
If hope is born of suffering.
If this is only the beginning.
Can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?

(Chorus)
This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

Hope u all will like it yeah!!

i reali reali want to foget abt it...

2009-06-04T10:47:00.001-07:00

I reali hope i could forget everything in life..i wish i am in coma or lost my mind,memory and etc....i reali felt so difficult with thing around me now..i reali dunno how to bear everything in life cos it seem to b big burden to me...

I reali hope he knw how i feel now and understand how i go on for tis moment...it is reali hard to go thru and it is so fake to b fake to ppl around..try to hide sumthing so so difficult in life..everytime i fall i just could not stand strong anymore i reali nid strenght from HIM so so much...i can bear tis alone...

I alwiz think why is me??but i reali dun wan to ask tis to myself cos i does not had an answer for the question...sumtime i just duno how to handle thing like tis....

Lord,pls bear with me......
i tot i will b happy with wat i hav now...but i am not...

there will be a day....

2009-05-30T07:04:00.000-07:00

This song reali touch me alot..its reali remind me tat thr will someday and somehow we will face the end day which reali soon...everyone nid to face the judgement day and we nid to go thru all the punishment and answer those question tat been ask..

There Will Be A Day lyrics

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that tries to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

(Chorus)
There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more
fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we'll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel you’re walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

(Chorus)

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will
wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery
this is why this is why I sing

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more
fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more
fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more,
we'll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day, he will wipe away the tears,
He will wipe away the tears,
He will wipe away the tears,
There will be a day.

Lord,i am prepare to face u on tat day i wlling to take all my burden and sin tat i had done...I am sorry Lord..

Love,
eve_gal

wat can i do much to make thin change...

2009-05-30T06:51:00.000-07:00

hey everyone...
Time passing fast and now i am in a new sem again which this is th sem i will fight for it again...it is not easy but i will do it still cos i had faith...

well,thing around me getting every dull and it seem thr is more black and white...i am disappointed in alot of thing and i am sad with thing tat had happen thru out...i try to love a person who main for me but now...i just how to express and dunno how to love the person..all sudden i felt the pain and tired to do thing..i had no motivation in everything in life..i felt fo giving up everything in life...

I knw i shud not like tat but i just colud not find comfort and peace and love tat i nid..i am lost and i am blind..i am breathless too..i felt my life is gone all sudden i lost th power to life on..i felt so difficult to stand and move on and breath...wat shud i reali do...

i kip cryin out to You and i kip sayin cryin to myself i does love him much...my mind is stuck..thing around could not settle i felt reali tuff i reali dunno wat can i do much to work thing out..i felt like cryin but i just could not.i kip in all into myself..i am showin tat i am reali strong which i am not...:(

love,
eve_gal

time passes and thing change...

2009-05-21T11:55:00.001-07:00

I dunno wat shud i do more to work thing out...i does love u but thing seem to go not in the right, i dunno are u still thing regarding about this relationship or not..but i reali do hope u had an answer in ur heart and u knw wat u want and hope for so long...I understand how u feel and i knw tat u dun hav the braveness to believe long term relationship..I will wan to let u knw it is not u are not perfect but even me myself are not perfect..Problem come to our relationship is our problem not u alone so pls dun put the blame o urself..I do reali love u so i do reali hope tat u dun put the blame on urself...

U went bck d and everything is over d...i reali do wan to hear sumthing from u..i dun to hide in the dark without knwin anything and i hope all the while i pray and fast with sincere heart God will look thru us and be with us..I knw He had bless tis relationship and him in my daily life which its does a greater gift my life...

dear i want to let u knw how i felt but i just dunno how to find and tok with u...i reali dunno..:'(

The road tat decided...

2009-05-19T08:24:00.000-07:00

Well, life are full with disappointment even how hard u strive thru out the outcome u still nid to bear with..

I would say God has his plan thru out...we just nid to take time and look thru everything...Today,everything to me seem plain..yesterday i reali felt 100% pressure whr it seem to drive me mad and drive me to depression...I wake up without any mood and my mom sick which make me dun wan to leave home but i have no choice i nid to settle stuff on hand..Well, i cook porridge for b4 i leave i clear every single thing at home too...Well, i leave with a heavy heart...i step into the car my tears just cant stop falling dwn and i just can recall everything clear wat had happen yesterday...

Tis reali pressure...anyway i had decide whr to go and wat step shud i move..i kip paryin in the bus whn i way bck to kl and i hope thr is ans for everything which hidden all the while...If tis wat God wan me to b i will b humble in everything i nid to do...At the moment i reali miss sum1 dearly...

I wish him all the best in exam tomorrow...i had faith in him which he can do it and i will pray for him..*dear,i miss u and i love u so much...and i knw thr is way out for a reason..no worries i willing to wait and long for u cos i reali do love u....just do ur best k...love u...*

I hope thing will goes well i dun hope this like this happen again...:D LAstly b4 i reali leave tis blog i wan to dedicate a song to my lovely dear darling..u knw who u are...^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6pW_q1PvH0 *clicky*

wat shud i do??

2009-05-18T09:44:00.000-07:00

Wat shud i do??wat shud i do??wat shud i do??how??how??

Those question just cant fail comin into my mind...askin me how and wat shud i reali do??
My future...my dream...my hope...my achievement...
Wat reali i can do??

I reali lose in the divider which i reali dunno which road i shud take and how shud i move on in my life and my future..what shud i reali do now??how shud i move on??Is tis i shud go thru in life??but reali why??I knw i does not have the rite to ask abt it cos tis had been plan out in life and it had been set...i just nid to go thru..

Well,at the 1st moment i tot everything settle but it seem nope...cos any decision i make it will lead to a wrong track which i reali dun hope...i reali upset and i had enuff with tears and pressure..but wat can i reali do now...everything seem to b so pack whr i nid to decide by tis week..tis is reali a hard time for me to go thru...:(

I reali hope sum1 can b with me but he seem to b no time for me and i understand how he felt too..i dun blame him even he had does something which reali hurt me at the moment but i shud not pressure him...i forgive and i reali dun blame him for he doin tat cos i reali love him even how many time he goin to hurt me..

At the moment, i felt everything leave me very far and i felt i am so so useless and helpless whr thr is no whr i could belong to.. :( My dad seem to give me alot pressure and i reali dunno how to handle it..i might lead to deepression...well who knw...no one knw... :(

Anyway i can do much and Lord i surrender everything in ur hand and oni u had the plan and the answer for every question i ask in ur name reveal to me and let me knw wat is the right choice i shud choose...Amen..

PS:i love u dear...no matter wat i will still forgive u cos i reali dun wan to lose u in my life..and i will broke the fear...trust me we can do it..:)

love,
eve_gal

how to move on??

2009-05-17T06:07:00.000-07:00

Currently i am facing alot of problem that reali give me alot of headache...i dunno wat shud i do and whr shud i go???i kip ask myself shud i stay or live??i reali dunno wat to do...my life is seem to blind in front..i felt so upset after all incident plus i miss sum1 dearly..i reali miss him..

Well i am in the consideration of stayin or move on??i dunno i am really upset and dunno what shud i do...i knw God has a plan for me but still i could not sit and do nothing..Today sermon reali speak to and tell me nvr give up cos each time we fall God will give us hope again..i knw but wat shud i reali do now???i facing multiple problem now..study,life,relationship and etc..i dunno whr to turn to...i nid strenght..

I was prayin and seekin His word but sumtime i reali felt of givin up every single thing in my life but God bless sum1 in me and make me fell i am not alone at tis moment i had him to be with too..if i reali give up how will he help me up??even thou i do not hear any support from him and comfort word from him or he did not show any concern to me but i knw tat he still care and concern everything abt me..i can feel his heart beat whr tellin me:'dear dear dun give up in everything u doin now...' tis reali make me as a motivation...

I felt so uneasy discomfort every time i face tis but still i am satisfied with wat is given to me and had been bless in me..God had bless sum1 in my midst which i reali appreciate it..we arte not together by all sudden by we are together by plan and also love tat pull us together..

Even the continue road how hard to move on..i will still move on i will nvr give every single thing in my life...At this moment i reali hope thr is sum1 bside me to comfort and tell me dun worry..everything will goes fine but i knw it will not hapen..well,he is bz and he felt pressure too i reali dun hope to bring with more problem in him now..as long i knw he alwiz will b i am hapi wilth it..i will understand..as i promise him to b a better ppl tat he hope for...

Well, i decided take the step out which i goin to mmu to require my edu...well i knw after this require i will be more headache and thing tat normally shud happen will all gone...whr i could not meet him even he will goin to kl..but i knw we cant plan bcos thing change..

i really hope everything will not change and i hope God will see me thru...

lastly, i hope ppl will pray for me..
ps: dear i love u and i dun hope on losing u in my life..bcos u been a blessing for me...

thks for being a good bf to me..

2009-05-15T10:34:00.000-07:00

Thks for being with me all the while and thks for loving me so much..u been a gud bf in my heart even thou u found u are not a gud bf to me..well,no one is perfect in this world so do i..

Now thr are alot prob occur but i knw this day will over soon....i wan u to knw i am alwiz rite here support and love u all the while...i will nvr leave u no matter wat..even we are not ready for each other now but i will wait till we are ready...

Thru out my life u are a guy which i love so much and are a person who can give me security...i reali do appreciate every moment we spend...even time tat we spend with each other are less but it is precious to me..

Thks for understand me well and thks for everything u had make it in my life u are a great guy my dear..i reali dun hope on losin u in life cos i does reali love u alot...and u r a person who i can spend my life with...i hope u knw...I LOVE U!!

love,
eve_gal

Is life tat miserable??

2009-05-14T00:11:00.000-07:00

My life seem to be in a mess for the moment..i try my best to work out something to solve thing up but till now i will not knw the result...i am not sure wat is the outcome of everything but i knw i kip tellin myself not to think so much cos surely thr is sumthing beautiful will be done..

At this moment,i can show how strong i am but real deep inside i am weak..A weak gal which could not stand up strong..thru out my life i had been face disappointment and i been fail alwiz..To share, without Him i will not able to stand up everytime..I dunno how much shud i thks Him but have Him in my life real amaze..Now i might face difficulties again and i real worry i will lose sum1 i love the most..

I been kip prayin and i been fasting every morning..I been seekin His word all the while i will not stop seeking..I knw in my life thr will b alot disappointment and i knw i have to learn to stand strong..Admit! I am trying thru out now but i real pray this time thing will not occurs with disappointment again cos u knw which level i am in..

I had promise him not to pressure the situation so much..i realise SMS between us had been less, i nvr think much just thinkin tat he might bz with his preparation so he might not free to SMS or reply me..Kip myself thing strong is not easy, real not easy cos it seem to be a life taker..but a promise will alwiz be a promise and i say before to be a better person..

I does miss him much even SMS between us had be less but i still truly still care and concern every single thing tat related to him...To love a person u love , u1st must be happy before u could let the person love..yes, i am do so even how hard i willing to scarifice cos he reali is a person who i can spend my life with...How many wrong i willing to b stupid to forgive as long i can protect this relationship..Being a fool or stupid is fine with me as long i knw i does real love him...

Asking myself is this worth in my life cos i am still young..i will say yes cos he is a person which i dream..and this relationship is with all faith and started..he had bless in my life by Him if without Him this relationship will not occur and he will not been bless in my life...

So i reali hope things will goes smoothly and i will kip praying and ask from His grace been show and His unconditional love tat had spread in me been show in the relationship so this relationship will felt warm and alive...

So Lord, oni u knw me and oni u knw wat my heart...i surrender everything in ur name..

LOve,
eve_gal

I am sorry!! to hubby

2009-05-11T18:48:00.000-07:00

I am reali sorry for the word i might hurt u..i just felt i am wrong..thing happen within and i reali wan to solve it...

I am truly disappointed truly to say after hear those thing u say but whenever i cool myself dwn and think..In this relationship i can tell u this i am not perfectly...u kip on say u are the one have problem but i can tel u not u..is both of us cos tis relationship is both of us...i had wrong too even how perfect i am being a gf but i had wrong too...

My heart is tearin away day by day...i did not knw why..i just feel the pain..i promise not to pressure this relationship anymore and i nvr tel u this let us refresh tis relationship and move again..I keepin alot of thing in my heart and i did not tel it out...Now i feel difficult and i dunno wat shud i do...i wanted to tel u but i choose not too cos u havin exam...

I just can say at tis moment i truly love u...i strongly knw tat if i do lose u i will break dwn terriblely and at the moment i reali will lose my consent and feelin in lovein ppl around..I keep tellin myself nothing will happen just believe everything is goin fine...but i knw i keep hidin myself from thing tat it might happen...

Every fresh morning i wake up,my mind just cant stop thinkin alot of thing...but i cant do much just to bear with the pain and my tears roll dwn without my consent..i kip tellin myself u love him and he love u too...why are u still crying??i just could not comfort myself...i did not knw wat had happen to u..u might be bz or u might sumthing on mind...

i can assure one thing in my life i willing to spend my life with u...i can scarifice those alot of thing to just be with u....

i just......

could not bear the pain....

i truly love you!!

study study study!!!!

2009-05-03T07:31:00.000-07:00

hi everyone...
how life is getting up??i hope u all enjoy thru the month....:D

i will blog sum of the promises to u all today....:D
1stly,as u all knw my exam is up..so i had been study hard for i...i reali hope this time it will reali make a different between....i dun to b disappointed again....the disappoint at past had been enuff for me.....here are sum pic whr me and my sis(simone) had study in starbuck..*amazed*

well,there are more picture but lazy wanna post up...hehe.....
up to the next blog regardin today!!

The mix and match of pice and puzzle of life..

2009-04-29T11:19:00.000-07:00

Hi readers....
It had been another long time on not blogging again...so so sorry...i had been bz with preparation of exam with kinda stress up...but still strive thru alot...

I had been promise post up but i did not fullfill it...so so sorry..i promise i will do so for the up coming post...

Just live update a little and part of puzzle of my life these few days....
There is alot thing happening thru out with my expectation and it seem to a tuff week...but still thks God for everything cos with HIM i reali do not knw whr to draw strength from....

Well,i admit i am in a relationship...i will tel u tat this relationship is not easy...At the 1st moment i am in i felt tat he is just treat me like a part time gf whr whn he nid me he sms me but whn not he will just leave me alone...tell i felt it thou i kip tellin myself he is buzz with stuff and so on...but than i still cant take the fact...i was reali upset whn found out he drinks and i disappoint on not bothering me...i was reali angry yet upset at the same time..At the moment i reali dunno wat to do i just felt the broke dwn and i felt a moment on rushin on this realtionship and i had done wrong decision..

I had been kip prayin for this relationship...even thou he is not a christian but stil he is God creation...whr God love everyone of us in this world no matter wat u are or wat color u are...without failing i kip paryin i knw thr will b a change in everything we done...tat nite itself i tok to him and i felt ok but thing seem to not tat well after tat...well..i start to think alot again...haiz...but thks God he actually prepared a way out for me...whrone of the nite we spend the whole nite on rising issues which happening thru out and we gettin to knw each other even more then b4...well all glory still goes to HIM...without HIM this thing would not happen....

my relationship with him now are more stable than b4...but then i still nid alot of prayer to cover it...cos prayer make different in our life...^^

well,upcomin thr still 3 more paper on hand which i nid to sit comin sat,mon and tues...i reali pray tat God do give me strenght and knowledge on doin well...i reali nid to study cos at the same time my bf coming dwn to kl..so i bet i had not much time on this and tat..so i nid a good time management....i pray hard for it...Lord pls help me yeah!!!

I guess i will stop here for not and get bck to my study now...thks GOd for everything....
PS:kip prayin for me yeah!!thks...

LOve,
eve_gal

The continue...Good 2 Great..

2009-04-18T02:46:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone..

As i had promise to do my part but sorry for the delay...so so sorry...

Well,this post wll b last day of camp..but the photo will b little random..

the last day of camp we had learn alot of stuff too even we are reali tired...we saw and learn sumthing which all the while we tot it is impossible to happen but guess wat ntg is impossible..just like ntg is impossible with God..

well..i had success poke thru the potato by a straw by one hit and alot ppl had conquerer

their fear whcih all the while in them...well i was reali amazed so those thing had happen...

well...

Now i will let the photo to do some tokin instead of me..:D

~welcome to digi HQ~

after a satisfied dinner yeah!!

we TARCIAN~~me and my commanders..:D

me and my real real boss~~*kennY*

me and my "boss"*kabilan*

we and nice MR.P ps:get to knw him..he is a nice guy...

my team and Mr.p ps:MR.P like to post around...he is a got model

see at the guy..he was lying dwn on the chair...

b4 it bring up to the chair..

*take 2*

*take 3*

sherlyn and few guys....

my team again with MR.P...:D

melissa and buddy with MR.P..:D

we as one sprit,one yellow,one life!!passion!!

woot...straw went thru the potato..:D

lastly...me and robin..:D

After depart from HQ i started to miss the camp and started of think the camp can b extend i will stay....it s reali nice and lovely camp...

Well...

I shall end here...it is too late d..time wont not allow me stay any longer...see ya...

miss u all..

Love,

eve_gal

a lovely hapi day had turn into a night mare..

2009-04-12T11:18:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone...
Had promise u all to blog but i did not keep my promise...i am so sorry..was bz with my project and my final is comin...i was worry..

well, i blog today cos i dunno whr to express out my feelin..i am totally lost again...why i alwiz face tis type of situation..it is my expectation too high??i reali dunno...admit i fall for a person tat is love me...the way he express himself reali felt differently...he sms me everyday so do i...admit i am in love....

i havin high fever which is 39 celcius..
shock off my life.....
but i will recover soon...

yesterday.....
he was bz with assignment....i dunno why i felt uneasy and i reali miss him...i did not knw does he felt the same way toward me...i cant read mind all sudden..i was totally blank..i reali wanna to knw how he felt for me and why does he express tis way..all the while i am strong and i will not fall for anyone thou they come after me....but tis time is totally different..i dunno how to say but reali different....

wat shud i do????
how would i knw he is same think as me???

if we were together......
alot question thou come into my mind...and so on...
but i did not wanted to care much as long i love him and he does so....

dear, i reali love u does u felt it....dun tell me all the while sms tat u express is the love tat u wanted to devoted in???can u tell me???i reali wanna to knw....:'(

ps:sleepless nite...i am death crying....
Love,
eve_gal

Part 2:good to great???

2009-04-08T10:00:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone....i am bck to blog more regarding the camp...As i had promise u all tat i will blog more, sorry for the late update due to project is up and alot of stuff drowning me....

Anyway,not to waste time let go into he camp topic..After the 1st day, we reali had not enuff due to essay we nid to to yesterday nite...lol..alot of ppl hang out at mamak just to finish the essay not oni tat but ot knw ppl more..:D

I and my college mate slept at 4am and woke up at 7.30am....and wake up tat time no water to brush teeth and bath..Its make me felt so so uneasy..but no choice is camp so let enjoy it bah....I went down to the lobby and i wait for my buddy to come dwn at the same time i SMS her...*started to miss buddy* and again start out journey to DIGI HQ again..:D

Let the pic roll>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

in the morning everyone waiting for the bus....thou we are tired..:D

reach DIGI HQ have a light breakfast and start our nice prog...:D

i think tis is lunch kua...not so sure..hahaha...too many food d..*yummy*

dinner time SS little...hahha....very cold actually..*freazzzzzzing*

Let us SS again...:D

*yummy*food...wahh....gone crazy...:D

Take 2*cant wait*

*cheers*have our joy and fun together..:D*tea time*

*yummy*tart cheer...*Yellow Army*

yeah....the *yellow ranger*passionnnn...:D

well..i will continue my blog tomorrow due to time constraints..i really apologize for the inconvenient...i will update all tomorrow...hopefully..:D

PS:pray for me yeah...i felt reali tired...:(

Love,

eve_gal

THe motivational camp!

2009-04-03T06:51:00.000-07:00

Hi guys and gal...
I will wan to apologize to u all for not bloging past few week for i am bz with my project and study around... Beside i am bz with some work too..:D

Anyway, i had great day through out even thou i am tired thru out the week but still i am satisfied with wat it is...

1Stly, i am wan to congratz to all YA(DIGI) who had graduated from the marketing event...we had alot of fun on it...even thou it is the last to work together..:D after the whole event i am bck home to studty my tamadun which had test the next day...after the test i went to my lab cls and i receive a call which informin i am the next coming advicer for DIGI in my campus..i was stunt at tat moment and reali speechless..i dunno how to express myself and felt a reali big pressure after all...cos i reali no confidence i can do it and why me???hahaha...after tat all of thing happen which no one knw except God...He knw every single thing tat happen thru out...i wanted to share but i cant *privacy*..

Den thru out the week i kip try to work out my job and decide fairly to choose commander for the new coming year...i hope wat i had decide will not b wrong choice..i trust them and i believe i able to wrk with so i reali hope they will cooperate with me..

On 27th to 29th of mac i went to DIGI Advisor and Commander camp...it was a reali fun and the coolest camp i nvr went b4...after the whole camp i felt reali relize in evrything had happen in the past...i felt like so light and had alot of passion in doing work...even thou this camp we whn thru alot of hard time, not enuff slp,lost voice and etc...but we truly enjoy overall and appreciate every single moment...:D
On the 1st day we reach DIGI HQ abt 7 and den we whn in to the office and it is raining outside...i was stunt by the whole building which make me felt amazed...is like so gigantic company with nice design..while we reach the 1st plc we wanted to go so much is the toilet cos we had stuck in the bus for more than 4 hrs..:''( after the toilet,we depart to the seminar room...at the seminar room we felt reali tired and hungry cos we had no lunch and had stuck in the bus for few hrs..hehe...after register ourselves we located a plc to sit and to our stuff with starving....:D but few minutes later after we say we are starving we whn t had dinner b4 the prog start..we had reali god dinner...reali good and superb dinner which we unexpected so much..thks DIGI....:D

After the delicious dinner we had we visit the whole company and we start our prog by knwing ppl around and have sum short clip which had prepared...den our honourable speaker U2 Kumar came up to start the whole prog..after a short tok he gave we whn to our 1st wrkshop with staring a simple game...

whr tis game actually teach how to cooperate as a team to win a point...den we learn more abt personality thing and we also learn how to care for our buddy...whn they call us to find a buddy which is different campuses i was so so worry abt it cos i reali dunno how find...but Thks God i found one buddy name Sangitha which a reali sweet and nice gal...after knw her we nid to do sumthing which is hard to our buddy which i dun willing want to do but had no choice to follow it..heheh..but thks God she reali understandin person..i felt sorry thou i little ganas at 1st cos the passion coming in me and had motivated me to do thing..:D anyway i had alot of fun thru out the 1st day even it is reali tired..:D after tat we end the whole wrkshop by singing a song and knwing whr we stay and who we stay with...

after derpartring from HQ to the hotel i wanted to bath so much cos its make me felt so so uneasy..hehehe....after tat me and sherlyn went to mamak and join the other in mamak...and me,shaun, sherlyn and another guy whr just knew him at the table which name robin...:D(nice to meet u) we ply "cho dai di"...i was so hapi for kip winning...hahaha...LOL...

den me and sherlyn depart bck to the hotel and do our assignment tat had given out to us....and we wrote till 4 am and depart to slp...tat time reali tired cos we nid to wake up at 7am..:(but still we had fun.....

TO BE CONTINUE>>>>>>>>>
STAY TUNE>>>>>>>>>>

PS:prt will b up soon.....

LOve,
eve_gal

It is well with my soul....

2009-03-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, Thou has taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Refrain:
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though Satan should buffet, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

There is story about this song which reali make me shock out my life.. Every time listen to this song i felt that the writer had reali strong faith and he able to stand strong on any storm tat come his way...

Well,let me share the story abt this song and the writer...
Here we go>>>>>

Spafford was born on October 20, 1828 in North Troy, New York. He was a successful lawyer in Chicago who maintained a keen interest in Christian activities, deeply spiritual and devoted to the scriptures.

Sometime in 1871, there is a fire in Chicago heavily devastated the city, and the months before that Spafford had invested hugely in real estate by the shore of Lake Michigan. The disaster greatly wiped out his holdings. But before the fire, Spafford also experienced the loss of his son named Horatio at his age of four years due to scarlet fever.

Two years after the fire, Horatio Spafford planned a trip to Europe for him and his family(anna-wife[Anna Larssen, later Americanized to Lawson, was born in Stavanger, Norway, in 1842. Horatio was immediately attracted by Anna's beauty and intelligence when she attended his Sunday school class in Chicago. When Horatio realized that Anna, fourteen years younger than he, was only fifteen, he arranged for three years tuition at a boarding school near Chicago before the idea of marriage could be discussed. The couple married in 1861.] ; daughther-Annie, Maggie, Bessie, and Tanetta). He wanted a rest for his wife and four daughters, and also to assist Moody and Sankey in one of their evangelistic campaigns in Great Britain. He was not meant to travel with his family. The day in November they were due to depart, Spafford had a last minute business transaction and had to stay behind in Chicago. Nevertheless, he still sent his wife and four daughters to travel as scheduled on the S.S. Ville du Havre, expecting to follow in a few days. On November 22, the ship laden with his wife and daughters was struck by the Lockhearn, an English vessel, and sank in few minutes.

After the survivors were finally landed somewhere at Cardiff, Wales, Spafford's wife cabled her husband with two simple words, "Saved alone." After receiving Anna's telegram, Horatio immediately left Chicago to bring his wife home. On the Atlantic crossing, the captain of his ship called Horatio to his cabin to tell him that they were passing over the spot where his four daughters had perished. He wrote to Rachel, his wife's half-sister, "On Thursday last we passed over the spot where she went down, in mid-ocean, the waters three miles deep. But I do not think of our dear ones there. They are safe, folded, the dear lambs." And at the same time he wrote this most poignant text so significantly descriptive of his own personal grief – "When sorrows like sea billows roll..." The hymn "It is Well with My Soul" was born.

It is noteworthy that Horatio Spafford did not dwell on the theme of life's sorrows and trials, instead, focused in the third stanza on the redemptive work of Christ, and in the fourth verse, anticipates His glorious second coming.

"My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

And Lord, haste the day when the faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul."

~THE END~

So after the story abt these song...how everyone felt??does u felt poignant on thing had happen all this while??why every time we face dilemma we enable to strong on our own feet??does we felt ashamed after knowing how does the writer go thru his life without broking down..Wat shud we do on gaining back all the strength and faith for our self??how shud we move on even thr is stumbling block stopping us to move??

I will leave those question to rewind in out mind as we move on in life...the is no other way but....................................................................................................................................................................

TO TRUST ON HIM(JESUS)

Only Him understand each and everyone of us and do continue draw strength from Him..I wan to thanks this song writer had let me understand wat kind of life we might face...at tis moment or in future..i do appreciate every single diffficulties tat had happen in my life...even it is hard to go thru but God had been a faithfull DAD and He want me stand strong for myself(which all the while i was not)..Thanks again for letting how worthful my life is to be in this moment even thou thr is up and down going on in my life......

PS:while writting all this my ears felt like rollin down and this song had ply at tis moment alot of time...i felt pressure with thing tat had mess around but i will stand strong cos i knw u are THERE...just rite THERE

love,
eveee_gal <3

How great is our God??

2009-03-17T08:14:00.000-07:00

There’s a star called Betlegeuse.

If Earth was the size of a golfball. Betlegeuse would be the diameter of 6 Empire State Buildings. If the Earth was the size of a golfball, and you were the tiniest little person on that golfball.

How big is our God.

Numbers are taken lightly.

A million seconds ago was 12 days ago.

A billion seconds ago was…

in 1975.

A trillion seconds ago….

was in 29 700 BC.

A quadrillion seconds ago…

was 30 million 800 thousand years ago.

There’s a star called Musepheus.

It’s so big that you can fit 2.7 quadrillion Earth’s inside that one star.

There’s a star called Canus Majoris.

It’s the biggest star found… yet.

If the Earth was a golfball, it would be the size of Mt.Everest.

The Hubble Space Telescope took a picture of a black hole in the middle of the Whirlpool Galaxy.

You can’t possibly tell me that that doesn’t blow your mind.

There’s a protein molecule in our bodies that keeps everything in place. It keeps everything as it is, as it should be.

It’s called Laminin.

It looks like this.

Now that can’t not blow your mind.

hey!!

2009-03-16T10:48:00.000-07:00

INFOMATION!!!!!
Wanna leave a comment u had to scroll all the way below..sorry for inconvenient..^^

A brand new start,,,,

2009-03-11T21:35:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone...time past so fast till we did not realize...now i am in sem 3 d...
and it had been a while i had not blog for so long..i am truly apologize..^^

Anyway,I miss the life back in hometown..and i do appreciate every moment i stay at home and every moment i spend time with family...reali fun....but now i am back again to KL and college...well,cls was fine and everything goes smoothly....^^this sem i will b having MYOB and also Tamadun.....hehe..i promise i will study hard and do my very best to do strive through my study...well thou is hard to go through but still i had no choice to success it and make my dream come true..

It had being a hard time life in KL..but i does reali wan to thks God for everything for being with me..if not idun think i am able to strive through till now..:)

There is few post tat i wan to update it..but time does not allow me to do so..hence,i will b update it soon..i promise..

Past few days i just felt i am not being me..i dunno why but i try to find out the reason..i dun dare to b sure the reason which had been found but just hide watever i could..i dun wan to turn bck to the old issue i been had for the past yrs whn i was in KL..i hope i will not face the same thing again...*God i nid u Now*

Anyway,i will b off now..i promise the lastest update will b up soon..BYEE!!

Ps:i knw i miss u but not now plz...
Pss:i nid God present..let me understand everything i dun walk in a direction which is not blong to me...

Love:
eveee_gal

The sweetest and hapiest tat You had prepared?

2009-02-13T04:24:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone..sorry for not updating my blog for so long..i really true apologize to u all...i had been buzz around due to exam and CNY, so there is not proper time for me to blog..so now i will take my time to blog what had happen past few week.... :)

Now bring u all back to jan....

I having my final exam on Jan and was buzz with study.. Truly tell u all that i have no mood to study especial every time after step into shopping complex..due to CNY is around the corner...but however i still force myself to study tat not too bad i guess...hehe..anyway my exam was ok overall and its also due to God had give the strength and knowledge to do it..so now i only can surrender everything in His hand.. By the way,how was everyone CNY??was it great???fun??how many angpow u all get??it is alot???well..my CNY was ok just a little quite rite after form 5 maybe is due to i shifted my house...however i still enjoy on being at home and relax..thanks to tat... :) Here is sum picture b4 CNY,CNY and after CNY... XD

~my love~

~sweet mlk river with lovely music playin~

~take 2~

~the musician~

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my 1st day of CNY!!

I went my dad hometown to meet up my uncle and my aunt...Meantime waiting for aunt from JB my uncle makin a call using a phone made it china...when he pull out the area i was shock and i was wonder where got this type of phone de...hahaha....take a look on the phone before i blog more abt it.....

~special and funniest phone i ever saw~*made in china*

~take 2~

ok...this phone is kinda useful...haha...no only u can sms,call, and to all kind of thing like normal phone...but the specialty is this phone can watch Tv....hahaha.....LOL....anyway i dun wan to kip continue with tis topic...let us process.......
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The picture below is the nite family whn to cruise..... :)

~cruise view~*nice*

~take 2 with the small version of eye on m'sia~

~me and my lovely mummmy~*muacks*

~me and my lovelyyyy daddy~*huggsss*

~my bro~*lonely*

~myself btw my parent~

~myself *poser*~

~kereta lembu~

~beca/trishsaw~

~rumah papan~

~mosque~

~Mlk christ church~

~A'famosa~

~special version of eye on m'sia~

~menara tugu~*i wan sit this*

~big giant dragon~

~pft..no idea wat is this d~*sry*

~the nite version of river view~

~lost direction??whr to go??~

~map on how long is the river~

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Few day later me and parents stay at home and do nothing...admot reali bored..sum more exam!!

~yummy~fudd!!

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After exam..i was so hapi..i release alot...even hapi my sis and mummy come up Kl fetch me and we go shopping together...and i had eat the most on this day..but i nvr took picture of the food.....XD Here is sum picture with newzzz dressssseee and clotheeeeeeeee... XD
model:Me
material:greenie the dress!!

~poser~nice dress!!

~poser2~innocent?

material:whiteeee the blouseeeee!!

~poser3~whiteee!!

~poser4~cheerful me...

material:zebra the blouseeeee!!

~the last poser~*just run out frm jail*XD

~who will b the middle person??~me!@#$%^

We having alot of time together even thou there is few conflict in between...but still having alot of fun in ikea....after tat we when bck home by stopping by seremban to take a full dinner..yummy!!XD...anyway..thks alot...love u all so much...*muacksssssssssss*

LOve,
eve_gal <3>

time goes off and on..so do mood..

2009-01-13T11:14:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone..it is late i knw i am still awake to finish my audit...haiz...anyway just wanted to blog a while...hehe...just update wat had happen recently...it seem thr is alot thing goin worng...i do not want to say in detail but it seem to tuff for everyone aorund tat i saw...well...one more prob is exam which is around the corner..i am so scared and worry abt so do ppl around me...exam seem to a fear to us as student but some does not fear it at all due to they are very well prepared...:)

Tell the truth i am enjoyin study audit now i found alot of joy and fun with it...well econs to me seem to...b...bored...hehe...well will try to make it fun...well i kind of worry abt MA,FM,and also FAP....but guess wat i realize tat today i study FAP in detail actually i could understand and i can do past year..i was so hapi..thks God for the wonderful knowledge He had gave me...:)thks Daddy...love u...XOXO...:)

I still one more day to exam..i kind of worry the coming paper...reali...so hope ppl around could pray for me tot...:)....those who pray,wish and etc....>>>>i will want to wish u thks....:)

I shud off to concentrate bck my audit...^^nite...GBU!!XOXO

Love,
eve_gal

mood swing..

2009-01-11T12:38:00.001-08:00

today i had a mood day..i dunno..i miss sum dearly without the person knwing...is sound stupid rite..i had not reali tot to him seen after the day itself..and the person seem to treat in away whr indirectly is hurtin me..i dun wanted to sound cos i does appreciate how the person treat me...

well,i just felt the feelin is reali weird and it seem to b hurt and unhappy oni...plus i hear a sound sang by raymond lam..the title is love without regrets..is a reali nice sound and it reali make me wanted to let go on miss tat person..i reali felt difficulty want those thing in this way..i hate it i dislike tis type of feelin is just make me not me...i will just take a few time to blog abt the song...here we go>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

愛不疚
ngoy but gau

收藏在眼眸
sau chong joy ngan mau
常徘徊左右
seurn pui wui zholl yau
愛猜到沒有
ngoy chai doh moot yau

愉快玩笑後
yu fai woon siu hau
能全然退後
nung choon yeen touy hau
你開心就夠
nay hoy sum jau gau

這種感覺太親厚
ze zhong gum gok tai tzun hau
講一千句也不夠
gong yut qeen gouy ya but gau
假使講了你聽到後
ga see gong liu nay ting doh hau
或會走
wat wui zau
這種戀愛太罕有
ze zhong loon ngoy tai hon yau
不須真正擁有
but souy zhen zing yong yau
成全
sing choon
衷心祝福然後
chuong sum zhok fok yeen hau
就放手
jau fong sau

放手
fong sau
放開所有
fong hoy soll yau
彼此更自由
bay tzee geng zi yau
放手
fong sau
其實我絕非愛得不夠
kay sut ngoll joot fay ngoy dut but gau
放手
fong sau
豁出所有
kwoot chuot soll yau
還有這個好友
wan yau je goll hoh yau
已經
yi ging
已經足夠
yi ging jok gau

遙遠是宇宙
yiu yoon see yu zow
靜靜在背後
jing jing joy biu hau
去看守就夠
houy han sau jau gau

這種感覺太親厚
ze zhong gam gok tai tzun hau
講一千句也不夠
gong yut qeen gouy ya but gau
即使一剎有過衝動
jik see yut saat yau guo chun dong
挽你手
wan nay sau
這種戀愛太罕有
ze zhong loon ngoy tai hon yau
不須真正擁有
but suoy zhen zing yong yau
成全
sing choon
多捨不得仍然
duo xie but dut ying yeen
是放手
see fong sau

放手
fong sau
放開所有
fong hoy soll yau
彼此更自由
bay tzee geng zee yau
放手
fong sau
其實我絕非愛得不夠
kay sut ngoll joot fay ngoy dut but gau
放手
fong sau
豁出所有
kwoot chuot soll yau
還有這個好友
wan yau ze goll hoh yau
已經
yi ging
已經足夠
yi ging jok gau

放手
fong sau
我的牽掛
ngoll dik heen gwa
找不到盡頭
zao but doh jun tau
放手
fong sau
期望你幸福甚麼都有
kay mong nay hun fok sum moll doh yau
也許
ya huoy
愛很深厚
ngoy hun sum hau
然而我早看得透
yeen yi ngoll zoh kan dut tau
放手
fong sau
至可擁有
zi holl yong yau

Hiding within my vision, always lingering beside, can guess love is not present
After happily playing & laughing, and be able to totally retreat; as long as you are happy it’s enough.

This kind of feeling is too loving & warm; to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient.
What if you were to hear it and afterwards leave
This kind of love is too rare, doesn’t need to completely possess
Giving approval, give (my) blessing wholeheartedly, then let go.

Let go, let go of everything, both will have greater freedom
Let go; in fact it’s not because I do not love enough
Let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend
It’s already, already enough.

From a distance, in the background of “universal silence”, just observing is enough.

This kind of feeling is too loving & warm; to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient.
Even though there was an instant, on impulse where I wanted to hold your hand
This kind of love is too rare, doesn’t need to completely possess
Even with heaviness of heart, (it’s best) to let go.

Let go, let go of everything, both will have greater freedom
Let go; in fact it’s not because I do not love enough
Let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend
It’s already, already enough.

Let go, my memories (of you) cannot find an ending
Let go ! Wish you will have happiness & everything.
Maybe, love is very deep, but I have already seen it through
Can only possess when (you) let go.

i had enuff of everything..this song teach me how to let go those thing had plan ahead.i dis;ike feelt of lostnesss..well, i hope i could like those ppl around but whn i knw i dun have the capability and power to say or ask...well...i will stop here la..tired d...sleep...:P

LOVE:

eve_gal

random...

2009-01-10T11:11:00.000-08:00

studying but seem the mood gettin bit by bit...huh...i dunno why...i miss the day i had....i pray over it and will see wat will happen...i now i shoud wait and i nid to have alot faith with it..gah!!bck to study...mood swingin!!haiz...miss the person...

God reveal me answer??

2009-01-09T13:03:00.000-08:00

Hi guys and gal...i congrats those who had finish their exam while i wish all the best to those who still preparing exam...well..today is a tires day for me...study was productive...loves audit...hehe..

Nothing much to blog but just do a quick share wat thing happenin around la...

As i had blog my abt thing had happen on past 3 days...and past 2 days my feeling was just okies...nothing much till night i just felt the hurt whn the gal say something...i do care for her feeling tat why i kind of sensitive..i reali do not wan thing happen and leave bad image in her and back as a memories...well..tat night itself i reali cant control my feeling but just burse out lidat...i did not hope abt it but it still happen...and thks God and thks kel and lice for being with and let me share it out...at that moment i knw i could only turn to God and i reali wan to find someone to say to but i just could not..and the person i can find and tok to is on finalz...so i do not want to call up and disturb...huh...but anyhow it had done on tat night itself by some1 praying for me and i just felt better after tat...

While yesterday was a tired day cos i slept at 7 something in the morning....study till very late....and i went to cls in the afternoon...till i tok to kumz(dear) and she told me abt a verse which is matthew 7:7-8...and guess wat in my personal time with God and the verse seem to appear again..is God revealing me something or God is tell an answer for those question tat i had doubt with it...what is all abt???only thing tat i reali can do is kip praying and wait see wat Daddy gonna do with it...

Tellin the truth i missin something and i knw i shud not miss it so much...bcos it will make me lost my concentration on study...i try to minimise it....i nid alot prayer to cover me and i reali hope tat those who read this can pray for me(everything>>studies,relationship,time management,health and etc), my mum,family and frenz...nothing much to blog sum more so i will stop here la....XD

~~good night everyone!!~~

Love;
eve_gal

my eye tear had drop...

2009-01-08T00:39:00.000-08:00

Gei Wo Yi Shou Ge De Shi Jian 给我一首歌的时间

雨淋湿了天空　毁的很讲究
yu lin shi le tian kong hui de hen jiang jiu
你说你不懂为何在这时牵手
ni shuo ni bu dong wei he zai zhe shi qian shou
我晒干了沉默　悔的很冲动
wo sai gan le cen mo hui de hen cong dong
就算这次做错也只是怕错过
jiu suan zhe ci zuo cuo ye zhi shi pa cuo guo

在一起叫梦　分开了叫痛
zai yi qi jiao meng fen kai le jiao tong
是不是说　没有做完的梦最痛
shi bu shi shuo mei you zuo wan de meng zui tong
迷路的后果　我能承受
mi lu de hou guo wo neng cheng shou
这最后的出口在爱过了才有
zhe zui hou de chu kou zao ai guo le cai you

能不能给我一首歌的时间
neng bu neng gei wo yi shou ge de shi jian
紧紧的把那拥抱变成永远
jin jin de ba na yong bao bian cheng yong yuan
在我的怀里你不用害怕失眠
zai wo de huai li ni bu yong hai pa shi mian
哦　如果你想忘记我也能失忆
O ru guo ni xiang wang ji wo ye neng shi yi

能不能给我一首歌的时间
neng bu neng gei wo yi shou ge de shi jian
把故事听到最后才说再见
ba gu shi ting dao zui hou cai shuo zai jian
你送我的眼泪　让它留在雨天
ni song wo de yan lei rang ta liu zai yu tian
哦　越过你划的线我定了勇气的终点
O yue guo ni hua de xian wo ding le yong qi de zhong dian

哦　你说我不该不该　不该在这时候说了我爱你
O ni shuo wo bu gai bu gai bu gai zai zhe shi hou shuo le wo ai ni
要怎么证明我没有说谎的力气
yao zen me zheng ming wo mei you shuo huang de li qi

哦　请告诉我　暂时算不算放弃　我只有一天的回忆
O qing gao su wo zhan shi suan bu suan fang qi wo zhi you yi tian de hui yi

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>translate to english...>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
(Give me a song's time)
The sky with rain
It becomes more gray
You say you don't know why at this time you're in one's hand
I am committed to the sun
Gray's more silly
Even if only afraid of doing wrong thing is a miss

Walk together
A separate walk
Is not to say that the dream hasn't done the most pain
If you step back
I can bear
In the final speak
Where is the love ?

Can give me a song's time ?
Hold closely then the embrace becomes forever
In my mind
No need too many insomnia
If you want to forget, then I can adapt

Can give me a song's time ?
To hear the story until the last to say good-bye
You take my tears
Let it stay in the rain
If you still doubt about my courage, it was a despicable

The sky was wet
It becomes more gray
You say you don't know why at this time you're in one's hand
I am committed to the sun
Gray's more silly
Even if only afraid of doing wrong thing is a miss

Walk together
A separate walk
Is not to say that the dream hasn't done the most pain
If you step back
I can bear
In the final speak
Where is the love ?

Can give me a song's time ?
Hold closely then the embrace becomes forever
In my mind
No need too many insomnia
If you want to forget, then I can adapt

Can give me a song's time ?
To hear the story until the last to say good-bye
You take my tears
Let it stay in the rain
If you still doubt about my courage, it was a despicable

You said that at this time I shouldn't say that I Love You
How to prove that I didn't lie
Please tell me
Time out doesn't mean that I give up
I only have memories of that day

Can give me a song's time ?
Hold closely then the embrace becomes forever
In my mind
No need too many insomnia
If you want to forget, then I can adapt

Can give me a song's time ?
Oh..To hear the story until the last to say good-bye
You take my tears
Let it stay in the rain
Oh..If you still doubt about my courage, it was a despicable

Rap:
You said I shouldn't
At this time say that I Love You
How to prove that I didn't lie
Time out doesn't mean that I give up

I said that I shouldn't
At this time say that I Love You
How to prove that I didn't lie
I only have memories of that day

hi..whn i hear this song reali gave me a strange feelin which do not express..i reali unsure tat feelin is wat...just knw it felt sour and pain..well,anyhow it is just a song..

I started to miss the special day tat i had...the short moment i had...i reali do miss but only it will b God's will and God's allow..yesterday i do had a reali bad day...everything seem to b last minutes...being a song leader as last minutes,help at last minutes,choose song at last minutes,learn song at last minutes and etc...i had this type of preparation...sorry to say tat but reali...hmm..a joyful tat had yesterday end up with a raining day with my tears roll down at the meantime of Alpha;s meeting..things happen which i dont wish but it still happen...i will not go deatil with problem tat occur but i will just blog some of it..

here we goes....(pray whn i blog it i will not cry)i reminded my housemate to do house duty but i reali did not knw tat one of my housemate told them not nid to do..so my response get from my housemate seem to so anti of everything..i just give a short remind did not mean anything but she response it a way tat reali hurt..she had get me wrong...i dun have the mind of concept tat she is lazy but she seem to be thinkin i am...she send the message tat reali do not bother the read...i am so hurtful by all word tat she say cos i reali do not mean it...anyhow,i could able to do is just end up with sayin sorry even how much she wanted to say...i felt reali disappointed and sad...i did not expect tat come from her but it did...well i reali speechless but my heart seem to felt the torn tat hurtin me...ok is reali embarass tat i had cry...thks to someone tat reali concern and care for me so much..truely say thks alot....^^

at the moment i actually think to call up someone but i knw i cant...so just let it be...*___________*i will end here..bye.... :'((

Love,
eve_gal

sleepless night!!

2009-01-05T23:13:00.001-08:00

Sleepless Night

The light goes out and silence comes in
Everything is quiet.... but that's just appearance.
I lay there and close my eyes..and felt the night will not be good..
I try to sleep and nothing else
I'm just confused and sad.... turning to and fro
My eyelids are heavy, my head needs to calm down
....only my heart seems to fight against my sleep

Weird thoughts kip coming in and destroyed feelings fly around
Why is sleeping at the moment so difficult?
Trying not to think about.... but it seem i couldn't control..
What shall i do at this moment itself???

The raindrops become sad...
And my feelings are so hopeless...
nothing i can do just to find back my peaceful sleep..
Only way to deal with my sleepless night is to clear up my situation..
That discomfort me so much..

hey guys and gal...how you all have been doin nowadays??exam is around the corner...so how preparation coming up??good??well...my preparation was ok..i will not say it is good bcos i kind of worry for it but i knw i just need to surrender to God..

Past few days i have been buzz on my exam preparation and yesterday i went to timesquare to meet up sum1...the meeting up was great and had alot of fun and joyment on meeting up,listenin and chattin...eventhou is short but was still great...but i felt sorry tat i had wasted thier time on temaning me...Sorry!!

Yesterday i had study till 5am and i nvr get to sleep tight at all..i dunno why but.....hmm...tis morning i wake up and i went to class but i just felt so tired and weak ..i try to sleep but i could not...haiz...

I worry abt my mom's medical result...well..i could not do much to recover her but i can only trust in Him and kip prayin..i knw that miracles will have so continue trust in Him and have faith la den..{mummy i will kip prayin for u and God love u...i knw He will heal u...^^i love u mummy!!muakss n hugss!!}

I think i will stop here for now cos i seem had no mood to write on i also did not knw wat i witting too..i bet i shud get some rest....take care everyone...love u all...XOXO...all the best!!

LOve,
eve_gal

New year; new beginning..

2009-01-02T07:53:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone...how u all have been done??time is just like the sea wave where it swap away 2008 and bring 2009 to this moment...so welcome lovely 2009...well,how was everyone celebration of new year???had alot of fun?enjoyment?happy?lonely?sad?lovely?or???

i tot my celebration will be bored and lonely..at tat time itself i had decided just go to church only but i did not expected everything seem like had planned by God and i just felt like its like His way....^^..at tat early morning and tat day itself i actually undecided to go because i actually had to place to go...at tat nite itself actually had decided with my answer but it still is a shaky answer to provide bcos i still dunno how to tell the gal i will b away...but i was so surprise tat she SMS me say tat she is not going and more prefer just celebrate with her family and frenz around...at tat moment i knew my ans can b provided to my housemate...so new year actually i celebrate with my housemate and some christian houses mate at klang....

tok abt klang...well,i will say it is a factory area and the road sometimes is reali bz..it is also a plc tat famous with 'bah kut teh'...haha..klang is not the 1st time i visit which tis will b my second time....tat day itself we went to church and attended the activity tat had provided...tat nite itself we actually wanted to celebrate at cafer but unlucky all cafe are fully book and its full with ppl...so we decided just celebrate at my housemate plc but spontaneously we had celebrate at mamak stall...haha...intersting yeah!!well..eventhou is mamak but it is blessed tat we actually can celebrate thr...^^tat time are reali near to 12 d and few minutes later we countdown together...haha...(around ppl was lookin at us)

tat nite everyone slept very late and everyone is havin its own fun...sum are chattin and sum are plying card,sum is plying with sequence, and sum oredi slept..haha....well..admit it i slept very late which i slept at 5...and the next day nid to wake up at 9 to go to church...but thks God i am noot sleepy at service....hehe...after tat we went to 'bah kut teh'.....i still felt malacca nicer haha....(sori klang ppl)^^..and we head for little shoppin at JJ thr...after tat we heading bck to TBR...at tat time is oredi dinner time d...everyone are so tired...well,i tot come bck home i will sleep but i did not...huh..and tat time i was preparing my dinner and after everything i start my study till 2 something and slept...well is seem the day is so short and pack with activity...haha...well, to those who celebrate alone is ok...anyhow, u are not alone alwiz cause thr is sumone much more special with u alwiz and had celebrated with u alwiz....try to guess who la!!XD...

it is late now...i guess i better get some rest...u all too yeah!!have a great day ahead on 2009!!have fun!!GBU all!!~xoxo~

LOve,
eve_gal

the ending of a year....

2008-12-30T22:02:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone...2008 is ending very very soon...couple just swap and 2009 is here...everyone was preparing their resolution of the year rite...so do i...hmm..well i dun hope for anything from ppl but wat i do reali hope is my dream will success and i will be grow more in His word...well,wat i do reali hope is:

My relationship with God will be much much closer and have more faith with him..
Me and family will live in a proper nice way and happy life
My result with full flying color just to glorified His name
My mum and dad health will be improve better(i do reali love them with bottom my heart)
Have true frenz in life and sum1 tat i can share my up and down
Have a great life ahead with spiritual fruit in it
Have a gud surprise in my bday
Hope to see everyone around me living happily
Hope my dream and wishes come true something special
See improvement in me(if anyone notice pls inform)

Well tat all i reali have in mind nothing much...wat is over for this year will be in past tense i will not recall in me again..sorry gal and guy for wat i have doe wrong in life...i reali felt sorry for it...especially charision and sum of CFer----->i dunno how many apologize i nid to say but i reali do felt sorry to u all i dunno why but i still felt is my right to say so cos i might do something tat i reali o hurt u all or say some word tat hurt everyone feeling...bside sorry dad and mum for being not a child tat u wan and u hope but i will be the outstanding gal tat u all hope in me and saw in me...i reali want to made u all proud but in 2008 had been a unsuccessful one...in this new comin year i will try all my best,afford,life,and everything just made u all proud and knw i am the outstanding gal tat u nvr had...sorry again daddy and mummy..love u all so much...
In my past life i reali had a bad life and i do not knw why mayb is just not my year...thing had happen i and thing i wanted desperately without waitin alwiz will cause sumthing in it...i had knw wat wrong and wat had happen within..in this new comin year i hope to see more miracles in it den human work...i want to depend on God work den ppl around..i dislike pls ppl and i dislike being left out by ppl around i knw tat no one like it also so do i...so i hope tis year will b better den before..reali do...(God hope u hear me)so i to cut it short i dun be lengthy so wish everyone had a

BLESSED 2009 and a great year ahead!!

A reminder day of Him.....

2008-12-27T01:12:00.000-08:00

Hey....here are the continue of the previous blog tat i promise...tok abt spore...i wanted to go for so long now i had the opportunity d...at JB i met my old frenz name jeremy...so surprise to meet him thr...i tok to him a while and started to tok and chat for a while...i was askin abt spore...cos he went to spore yesterday...just kinda worry tat spore will disappoint me dueto recession and inflation...and no company had income to spend just to deco spore....but thks God so much tat spore did not disappointed me....:)...below all this picture are showing the departing to spore...we do not drive go instead sit public transport to there..our car park at my relative hse and tot my relative will fetch us go but no one at home so they call taxi to drive us there....few minutes later we reach the CIQ(Customs, Immigration and Quarantine) to check in to cross over spore....now,i wil let the picture to do the tokin yeah!!!^^ here we go-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------->

1st reach the CIQ

walkin to cross over to check*tired*

the lane to check in and sit bus to woodland..

inside CIQ d....the deco inside the building!!

now to check in to the imigresen!!

the departure...#sorry the picture is blur#

goin to take bus to cross to spore d!!yuppie!!

to the platform to take bus!!

this is whr bus stop..picture show the place name "Gerbang Selatan Bersepadu"

hahah!!in the bus..this is the bus ticket...

the bus window stated No passport?please alight before reaching the checkpoint..

the view whr on the way to checkpoint...my bro in the pic...haha...

the view..tooken in bus..

view view....
well...reach the checkpoint i could not take any pic bcos is go against the law cos spore is reali strict with those legal stuff...so sorry could not show u lo....after the checkpoint we pass through woodland till reach to kerenji....the MRT station..den we took the MRT to orchard to check in hotel over spore...few picture below are the 1st place tat i reach....

orchard road...JW Marriott hotel...no $$ to stay thr...XD

while waiting my sis took some pic...
after a while we go to the hotel room..we was stayin at york hotel...i nvr take pic of the hotel...XD...after a while i decided to find my frenz whose stay at spore....hehe...jason i comin to meet u......haha...holly i am coming....weweweweewewe.....XD

me and jason's sis.....she is nice...

me and holly....bcome great pal after knw each other...

some view at orchard.....

orchard road feel full with flower car...this is on of it....done by methodist church!!*cheer*

peter in the ship(fisherman scene)......

fisherman catch some fish...the man at the was play instrument...

same as above..i think is horn instrutment!!

second flower car abt nation are rejoicing for He is born...

sheep sheep.....bababababababab...

the big shining star....

look there is few dove inside....

the angle rejoicing for He is born...

one of he deco outside the shoppin mall....

shop deco christmas tree...specail of it using bear....

i want those bear..look cute..so a great tree...hope got ppl does same for me....XD

those are care bear.......nice and cute bear....haha....me and one of the orange care bear!!

shoes shoes shoes!!!pinky!!!(well,dun misunderstand yeah i not the shoes seller....XD)
after having fun with my frens...i went to meet up my family and go bck to hotel to clean up myself b4 continue enjoy.....:)...i bet at nite the whole street will be more nicer and beautifull...:)....after a while......we were out...look those picture..how beautifull are the place is>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

love love..God is love...make us in love with Him....

joseph and mary....nice nice....

the dove.......:)^^

angle glorified His name...Amen...

shepherd!!our God....our saviour...

one of the plaza...i nvr went in la...XD

the wise was search the bright shining stars....

ribbon...big,beautiful and nice...

all nation for He is born.....Amen...

the fishermen scene again....

everyone is crowded around for He is Born...

Amen....He give richly and all things to enjoy...

nice deco...wonderful!!

with God all things are possible...Amen....

tangs..shoppin mall...is blessed by God...the bos wrote thr all glory to Him...

christmas season....they havin line dancing...sporean like....

same picture as one of above...with God all this possible...

wat the hottest news??check it the below pic u will knw...

ppl are askin around...

all inns are full where the baby goin to born???

mary,joseph and inn keeper....

the list of church tat deco....thks alot....all glory to Him...

good news good news.....come listen the good news....

the baby has born...the baby will b name *Jesus*...

follow the stars u will see the baby tat lay in the manger...

the wise are searchin for the stars...

cupcake....giant cupcake....nice...

water foundtain...merry chritsmas....

alot of ppl....nice deco...

another giant cupcake...

merry christmas....swee christmas is the theme for spore...

the end of deco....merry christmas once again...
after walkin through out the road i am truly tired...huh...reali...walk here and thr and was waitin fo my uncle to meet us up....while waitin everyone was starving.....hmm...few hour later we havin our dinner.....yummY!!
picture of food tat we ate.....few nia....
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korean hotplate rice...yummy...my food...nice....

japanese food....my avourite but i can eat so many stuff...haha...my sis dinner...

sis's bf korean mee....seafood mee!!yummy!!

my bro dinner also korean....hotplate beef!!
after the great dinner...it was late and everyone is tired...hence we walk bck to the hotel at the hill....hmm...reach hotel is already 11 something....huh...gah...super tired but i nid to stay awake to do some study....hehe...whn i reach hotel i took some pic with bear bear....haha...my gift from jason...thks alot i love it so much.....muacksss....here are those pic
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me and browny bear....cute...

again me and cute bear...

bear bear....love!

adorable....thks jason...

the bear and tortise....

pic with bear in fornt of mirror...poser...cute!!

after a long day continue my study b4 i sleep.....whn clock turn 1 something i went to slp.....hehe.....tat all for my 2nd day at spore....XD....love Spore....XD....i will continue my blog tomorrow...tired d.....adioz...^^

Love<3,
eve_gal

A day start with God..^^

2008-12-26T20:37:00.000-08:00

Hi reader...wishing u all a blessed Christmas and happy new year again..yup..it seem late but for God it will nvr a late...well...today will blog a little abt music and the second day of my vocation...ok,music tat i wan to blog is the new album tat is "This Is Our God" it is a great album all the song inside reali touchin and it reali speak up wat u wanna to tell God...well,in this album i could say almost every single song i reali love it and it reali touch me...
Here are those song in this album:

1.	Your Name High
2.	Run
3.	Across The Earth
4.	This Is Our God
5.	He Is Lord
6.	High And Lifted Up
7.	Stronger
8.	Healer
9.	You Are Here (The Same Power)
10.	You Deserve
11.	Alive In You - DVD ONLY - Not On CD
12.	Desert Song
13.	Sing To The Lord
14.	Where We Belong
15.	You'll Come
16.	Turn Your Eyes Upon Jesus
17.	With Everything

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A song i wan to blog so much...reali feel me this morning--------------------------------------->

Hillsong widget by 6L & Daxii

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this song remind us tat He is our creator who is powerful and creative without Him there will not have any stars,moon,sun,nature,we(human) and etc and this world will not turn into so beautiful and mayb it will fill oni with two color which is black and white...so today i want to tell DADDY we will alwiz remember this your creation and we live for your glory not by ourselves..well,there are still had few song i wan to blog abt but now i would prefer blog abt my vocation as i had promise so i will blog abt tat 1st..i will blog those others song next blog k....^^ so stay tune yeah!!
Now up next the 2nd day of vocation...JB----->SPORE
The morning i woke up i had a reali great day and excited lookin forward cos it is Christmas....yeah!!happy bday DADDY...love u so much...*muacksss* well,today we wake up very early around 7 something cause goin for breakfast..here are some picture wat i had for my breakfast!!

these are those food i ate..except the 3rd plate!!XD..
After the big breakfast i went to gym,swimming and suana...i had fully use the facility that provide by the hotel....after the everything i went up to the room to get ready myself before depart to spore....i will blog at the next blog cause thr are alot of picture.......XD..^^

Love,
eve_gal

special blessed season eventhou is tired!

2008-12-26T06:37:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone...time passing very fast whr Christmas already over...hope everyone had a great Christmas yeah!! well i have a great time with family even thou is tired....hehe..after i came back from kl i had to get ready myself cos nid to travel to JB whn my bro is bck..well b4 depart someone actually propose to me...i was little shock of it but still ok la..cos i had use too d..shud i say i could actually sense it...well drop tat off...do not want to tok much abt it...haha..XD...well me and family depart here at 5 something...the journey is reali long and tired..bside we were travel with the small car...cut it short we reach thr at 7 something...and it was raining and the traffic was kinda jam a little and we are straving...XD..here are some picture......
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~1st up:the hotel[grand paragon] ~2nd up:the room
~3rd:the bathroom ~4th:a pic in the hotel room...
~coming up 5th:room number ~6th dinner!!yummy!!(satay)
~7th:drinks(shud cal dessert- lou wei) ~8th:the main course(curry fish)
~9th:deco of the hotel ~10th me at lobby hotel
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some pic of the night view near the swimming pool...

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guess wat the swimming pool is oval shape de and it summore so windy on tat nite...havin a gud fresh air tat time....and tat time actually there is free admission chritsmas party are on air....haha...but i do not wanna to join together it seem like for those who goes pub or disco de...XD....well next post comin up soon...temporary tat much la...haha...too tired d....gud nite everyone....^^..miss u all....muackss....hugss...

Love,
eve_gal

passion for HIS song!!

2008-12-21T03:52:00.000-08:00

Hey...i am here again...just now i cal up my mum and i was fool with her cos today is "Tong Yuan" day...hehe..but she ask me u like "tong yuan" de meh??but serious i not reli like it!!but my hsemate and frenz was havin alot of fun in doin it...hee..i was so hapi on doin it cos i hav freedom to do different kind of "tong yuan"...guess wat i had made milo and chocolate "tong yuan"....Here sum of the picture of doin the "tong yuan"...

here got four picture...1st one at left is the process of "tong yuan" and continue 2nd picture is on the right is the process of tong yuan!!the 3rd picture on left is the second tray of tong yuan and the 4th on the right is the continue of 3rd pic!!the next 3 picture is the endin process of "tong yuan"and milo and chocolate flavor de!!XD

here another four picture..those are the process of doin milo and chocolate "tong yuan"....yeah!!and here it come the white hot "tong yuan" is up!!weweweewew...XD

the 3 picture above are the ending process of the "tong yuan" and flavor of chocolate and milo de...haha...:)...

here the endin of tong yuan story...now i wanna blog a song reli nice and felt warm whn hearin it!!here we goesthe song is....................................................

Lyrics to Desert Song :
VERSE 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides

VERSE 2:
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame

CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

VERSE 3:
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

BRIDGE:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

VERSE 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow

tis song reli mean alot to me...i felt reli warm whn hearing it...i felt touch of it...cos reli it is my prayer to the LOrd and whn face trouble an trail i felt the present of HIM and i shud had faith in HIM....and Amen tat i will bring praise and rejoice in HIS name..cos no weapons against me shall remain...and all of my life HE is still the same to me and i will all have the reason to sing and worship HIS name...HE is so wonderful and HE will alwiz be my victory in my life...cos HE had won my till the end...
PS:DADDY I LOVE YOU FROM BOTTOM OF MY HEART TRUELY AND TREMEDOUSLY!!

shoesbox tale..

2008-12-21T00:21:00.000-08:00

Today i went to church...i had invite two frenz to come along with me...at the 1st i was kinda sad cos no more ticket d....but thks God for give me two more extra ticket...hehe...AMEN!!i meet anthony(piggy) today...haha....wah..so long nvr meet him d so today is my second meeting him...haha...XD..see him doin very well in life...i felt so guilty actually cos i told eu pui i will be pactual but i did not...huh..sorry eu pui and DADDY!!hmm...anyway i did enjoy the show just now...it recall me alot and reminded me to frogive ppl who does wrong thing...in mind i felt hurt cos how ppl treat me i just close one eyes and done with it...well...sometimes did felt left out by ppl and dislike by ppl...i knw feelin by self is not a very good thing but i just felt it..sorry for being sensitive...well..in church i told DADDY i will forgive my dad no matter wat i knw i had being disobedient sumthing and did not succes wat he wanted from us...well..i do reli promise myself no matter how hard is life i will strive through and win everything in life...is sound hard rite but i now God had plan for me and He is thr to walk with me too...here grab a opportunity to say sorry dad for i had not listen to u and i had disappoint u with my result everytimes...i had not gave u a result tat u expected from me....i knw u knw tat i can score high mark but i truly sorry!!well..thr is ntg much to say but i do reli hapi cos can meet piggy today!!haha.....but i ken bully and tease by piggy and wei zhen teruk....huh...well as long they havin fun in teasing den ok lo...haha....i am ok de...sorry piggy and wei zhen for not being myself today cos i felt reli guilty today....hehe..
Anyway i wanna grab opportunity to everyone a blessed xmaz and hapi upcoming 2009!!hav fun in xmas and high expectation in the new arrival year!!Be blessed!!

LOve,
eve_gal

year end is getting closer with nid HIM more than ourself...

2008-12-19T09:16:00.000-08:00

so long have not reli update...i had promise to update frequently but i had not due to sum reason tat i am facin so trying my best top update recently...life getting mild and year gettin closer to 2009...here i wanted to share a song to you all...reli touch me!!

Australia Hillsongs - Deeply In Love
In my life You`ve heard me say
I love you
How do I show you it`s true
hear my heart, it longs for more of you..
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you..

You have stolen my heart
I`m captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you

You and I, together forever
Nothing can, stand in the way
My love for you, grows stronger
each new day.
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you

You have stolen my heart
I`m captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you

You have stolen my heart
I`m captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you In my life You`ve heard me say
I love you
How do I show you it`s true
hear my heart, it longs for more of you..
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you..

You have stolen my heart
I`m captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you

You and I, together forever
Nothing can, stand in the way
My love for you, grows stronger
each new day.
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you

You have stolen my heart
I`m captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you

You have stolen my heart
I`m captivated by you
Never will you and I part
I`ve fallen deeply in love with you

He is reli wonderful and power till i am deeply in love with HIM...reli without HIM i am not "evelyn lim" in this present and at this moment...i nid HIm to reli stand firm again and nid HIM to faces the war...without HIM i am nothin just a piece of paper with full of drawing!!LOrd u are reli wonderful and marvelous...LOve u so much...as for my life now i had been enuff of it..i just felt hurt all around so i tend to stop...even the guy tat i like too...even he dunno i just could silently praying for him tat much i can do...i am tired gtg liao..:)...miss the person so much but stll had to let go~~~!!!

worthless day i had....

2008-12-15T09:28:00.000-08:00

time past and now 2008 going to end soon...to reli look back all this years wat i had done??have i done my job as a great daughter in the family??have i been obedient all this while??had i listen to wat my parent say??had i reli obey them??well all this question surely popping up in mind...so wat had u reli done..being a youngest in the family i felt difficult..even thou to everyone sound like cool and nice cos the youngest surely very manja de lo...but as for me??do i reli manja..i felt i am so unlucky to be a youngest in this family...why??i had been blame seen i am small..all the household things tat spoil all mistake tat had been done by sibling and etc...i just felt ouches because it is reli a pain of it..whn was form 4 and 5 i alwiz told my ex i wan faster be out of this house...but guess wat i relize in life now to be out or at home is still the same..why??whn i am out from house and far apart from family i just felt i am alwiz been put in a blame i reli did not know why.i just felt sad and hurtful whn it happen..eventhou i does miss my family but reli think back wat happen reli is a pain..come out from the house is just a painkiller for me..hmm..sumtime i think if i does not exist in this world it will way better for each and everyone lives in this place rite...hmm..i reli felt so so difficult with things happen around..ppl seem like dislike me i did not knw why and can sum1 tell me of it..i reli wan to knw wat its the reason..tell truth i do care and concern for u all...wat had happen this few days i relize the person i like at 1st few moment he reli treat me in a way tat i did not expect but now wat happen..are we far apart??i can say i guesss i just felt so different from wat had happen b4..i reli hope he could continue but why its stop at this moment itself..i hate myself so much..i reli hope i had chance to asks him why he treat me like this...i reli do want to ask him...but i knw i dun hav the braveness cos he even did not know i love him..to love a person tat he did not knw tat u love him is reli is a pain in heart and being a stupid to love, care, concern a person is wat i had done in my life all this while...i just wonder why i sacrifice to do this just for him..whn relise he treat ppl better is just hurtin urself and whn see or saw wat he had done to other gal is just a discouragement in life...will i had nvr meet sum1 tat reli meet nearly all my requirement..and i had been praying for this for every long moment..i did not knw wat HE goin to do with this ut i knw sumthing nice and sumthing tat he will not disappoint me...so i will keep wait till HE sow me wat it all about...i reli do pray for this relationship to happen...cause i do reli loves day by day!!

is tis a love or crush???

2008-12-08T08:24:00.000-08:00

hey it had been a long time i did not update my blog d...so now i will tell u wat happen in past..well at past there is nothing special just busy busy busy and busy tat all..hmm..and my studies kinda worry cos did not reli touch book nowadays...well time pat and now i am goin to left one month b4 exam fever came...huh..well i whn back hometown and came back this evening..whn i at mlk i was reli dwn and dunno wat to say whn see thing around like a mess and everything seem like unhapi,,mum told me alot thing ad she told abt herself too well it truth i am wori her i dunno how to express it..bside i miss sum1 dearly i reli ope he will knw it but i knew the person will not know co the person dunno anything at all except the person can read me...telling the truth i hsd fsll for dum1 and the sum1 did not knw it yet...i could not let the person knw cos it is not time yet...i had been praying for this issued for a very long time d...i reli hope tat i can let the person knw..i reli do hope the person will b my future but i reli did not knw will it b or not...hmm..everytime saw sumthing like message tat had posted to ppl i felt so hurt and disappoint..i reli do hope thing will happen in a way tat i wan to but i not it will not happen de...kip praying is my job to do in this relationship tat i wan....i reli love him....re;i....miss u dearly....do i had a crush on u or love feeling??but i knw i do wan to care of u but just afraid tat i might bother u...:)

God's love which the everlasting love..

2008-11-30T09:31:00.000-08:00

I blog a song to you all 1st..this song reli do touch me personally i reli let me realize even more wat He wanted to remind us as His children!!

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You

Let me sing all for love
I will join the angel song
Ever holy is the Lord
King of Glory
King of all

Oh how many times have I broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only I ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

All for a love a Saviour prayed
Abba Father have Your way
Though they know not what they do
Let the Cross draw man to You

Everything I need is You
My beginning, my forever
Everything I need is You (x2)

thank God for being so so generous to each and everyone on us...

Well, November had ended and to look back the past i ever had in November it is such so painful month i ever go through with full tears and sadness tat impacted my life so much...on the bright sight i can alot of miracles happen and God's love!!well, anyhow time past and December had impacted in tis moment..so i bet u nid to stay tune to see wat will happen tis month through!!well...i have no much hope oni hope everything really goes well and all my dreamz and hope sucess in life....i dun wanna b a loser a ppl around cos i wan to b the outstanding one tat stand out God light in this moment and forever!!Father i knew u hear me and i knw my prayer to you u had heard me and it will b answer by u bcos whoever ask will b given..so i will b still in the present of ou to see miracles and wonders on how u impact my life...i loves u thee!!
times gettin latez i guess i gotta slpif not i will b XX...XD

LOve,
evegal^^

time reckeless!!

2008-11-29T07:56:00.000-08:00

It had been a long day i had no blog so today seen i am free and tired so i blog lo..XD...time seem flies so fast and it again reaching to december...past whole week it had made being so so tired...and i just finish one coursework,one presentation and also assignment!!hmm....past few got little emotional but now gettin better in life..well..thing tat happen it will alwiz happen..it can help it cos could not predict at all...and i have learn how to let go something tat i reli wanted but guess wat now it had turn even more better but i could put too much hope in cos worry tat if one day it fail wat will happen den???my coursework was good just did not knw i do correctly or not...hehe..as for presentation was extremely good!!wee...shud b A d...wahaha...hmm...yesterday had practices for x'mas and was ok..;) just kinda worry cos next week is my last practice and i had to be on stage d...huh...wat shall i do??hmm...past few day i had let go thing tat i love so so much and God had multiple even in better way.. well i hope God will continue surprise me and i will keep prayin for this thing i love so much...i reli hope it will happen one day...this is reli my hope and dream...i bet u were guessin wat is abt..hehe..hmm..i will not say for now but whn it come den i will let u all knw ya!!haha..everything seem so so fast and is already sunday and bring along the end of november.....;) well...it is reli a long day through and i had not reli touch anything and week 14 seem to get closer and closer and i will be comin to the end of the sem again...this time reli do pray hard and i must reli do well...wait....not only do well but must score the best result of all...i must do it andi can do it...i nid to win this race no matter wat...have faith ya!!hehe...

Christmas getting near and i got some present for frenz but how abt myself???hmm...well..i dunno wat i reli want but if thr is ppl give me i will willingly acccept it no matter wat even it is a great big hugss from them i also dun mind...wahahaha...XD..i bet i gotta slp d if not tomorrow not cute and adorable liao...haha...hm...well...get latez if i nvr slp will continue crazy d....lol...gud nite!!

Love,
evegal

2008-11-23T04:01:00.001-08:00

Days passes and here come another week..felt so tired of everything around but anyhow things still need to move on...i am just back from mlk...i felt very heavy to leave the plc even thou too many thing impact my life till the end point anyhow i still love and miss them..i could not let go easily..my mum once say i am a huggiez bear so everytime i leave nvr miss she will hug me...well..the last time i hug her really felt the terribleness tat impact me..my mum cried so much till nvr let me go i felt so hurt of seein it...i felt so sorry to her..i cried and i really felt so tuff...i love her and every single one at home no matter how they treat me but i still loves them...even most of time i did not sound and i am silent but i still loves them so much...i will felt hurt if one of them get hurt...today i left my house by giving my mum a great big hugzz and today is me felt i dun wanna to let go but i have no choice due to time constraint...i found comfort in her and i do found the loves in her too...i feel so disappointed and i sad...whn i reach bus station i felt the loneliness and i knw i have to b strong...i step in the bus and i seated at the plc i suppose to sit i though bck abt my family...good and bad but they still apart of me...i knew i need them so much i nvr felt this b4 i felt reli tuff..ok come back to this morning as befoe i woke up i dream alot of thing i dreamabt family, i dream abt a person**** and etc..i felt so heavy in me and i pray to God and do my devotional b4 church...church was gud as normal it was... :) and well today i lost my faith in HIm and i knew i was reali wrong so sorry Daddy.. i knw i need to stand frim in everything i do but i just worry i will lost sum1 i love so much i worry i will nvr get to be the person i love again...so sorry DAD for not trust and have faith...well, i will build a stronger wall and i will have more faith in myself..i will nvr let YOu disappointed in me anymore...i knw DAddy love me so do i..
Thing i reli pray hard for:
1 Relationship with God
2 my family
3 my study
4 A true frenz
5 A person tat i dun wanna to lose

Love,
evegal ^^

why cry again.....

2008-11-20T00:44:00.001-08:00

Before i start my day and life here is sum picture on AGM day...
so the 1st picture are me in formal...and the another picture is me and my lovely sis(we are both auditor)...
Here come my story abt this few days...well yesterday is Alpha and everything was good except me la i am mood and i felt really hurt...before i reach the venue i was actually gettin better till i was at the venue i just felt reli disappointed and hurt cos i just felt tuff..well..i will not say wat hapen anyway..and i sat out the class and i was listenin to hillsong and took my dinner...all sudden after my dinner the feelin gettin more lonely and alot of though keep comin in and i just dunno wat to say and how to express...and in the classroom look like they had more fun den me alone outside..they were laughter and jokes around..i reli felt gloomy...huh..and whn i listen one desire and in christ alone tht tme i just cried out and i quickly pray to Daddy...i just dunno how and whr to turn so i do my prayer to clam myself dwn..anyway after the pray i was ok la but still had tat feel..i hate being like dat and just dunno how to overcome..well...after the nite i went bck on9 and chat with ppl...well i was reli tired and lose mind...i was chattin with matt and i just dunno wat i tok well just randomly tok lo and i admitted wat happen to him...well..i knw he will felt disapponted in me for being like dat..i really felt so sorry he had told me and remain me not to think and be lidat but i still does it..i felt reli bad and so so sorry to him...i just felt i had to apologize to everyone for i am wrong..i just felt..frenz who read this reli sorry if i had done wrong and i had hurt u all especially hsemate sorry for let thing u all see i am sad and moody..reli sorry but i could say i could not control it whn i am totally dwn...i just felt left out ad i just felt the loneliness...well...big burden is in me anyway...i am tryin to find a way to let it go....anyway thks matt the concernin and advicing again i am sorry tat i had disappointed u...and sorry if i had hurt u,annoy u,made u angry and etc...well..i just fekt sorry...anyhow how i guess i wellbe off for a moment to just survive by myself..well..no one knw wat will happen tomorrow any way...i guess tat all for today i wanna off for meetin liao...anyway i will keep updatin this blog if i can...

Love,
evegal

At last till the end....

2008-11-18T09:34:00.000-08:00

i have not blog for 2days....well within this 2 days not so many thing happen but thr is still thing around here and there la...past few week and this week just felt very buzz and felt everything seem so messy...i also felt tat thing around is not right in position...well....i kinda worry abt my studies and those thing tat occur in life... :) well..i tried to study and concentrate recently but it just not done...well..i tried to find sumone frenz tat really i can be with but thr is just no wan..wel...today is AGM and i had done my part as auditor...but i had no completed the account yet..well still in progress... :) anyway, after tonight and today i just felt i am really left out by ppl.. i just felt whn they need me they will be with me and whn they dun need me they will just dump me a side and even dont bother at all..well..i had use to it anyway...i just dunno i felt tat..i dun blame anyone la..i just felt tat i am...mm....well i just how to describe in word..i guess u all well do understand how it felt in urself... by the way i dun wanna this to be issue in my life and a part of it...well.. i will not even bother if u all wanna tok bad abt me...but just kinda sensitive of it nia l...i admit i am sensitive kind of gal i am easily being hurt......thing happen as it happen i could not change or stop wat it wanna to happen right...by the way i kind of disappointed la just felt the sadness of it...why it happen in this way...well..sometime really do felt the loneliness whn see ppl around had a gud and closest frenz tat they can share with...well i do not wan to rely on any1 but i just hope i could be like others....well He will knw and have it own way... :( now basically had a feelin of missing sumthing and just dunno whow to express out...and reli keep prayin it wll not lose it and it will not happen...kinda think alot well human...try to control anyway..just worry sumday t will belong to sum1 sound like so selfish...hehe..but i will noe say i am selfish but just dunno how to face went lose it.. :(

happy day??

2008-11-15T05:08:00.000-08:00

Today i woke up everything was really fine..thks God i had a gud nite...hehe...well...i was really happy of it..hehe...lol...so i went to the morning class at 9.30am...hehe...so went i reach dk i was kinda tired la but was ok lo...cos yesterday slept late..hehe..so after class i walk bck tot of goin to check up sum price for phone but end up i dun wanted to den...so i went back home and i cook my lunch for myself and my housemate..hehe...den around 2 me,my housemate and other christian housemate to KLPAC to watch the footstool play...wow...was really nice and cool...haha...lol...:)...after evrything i came back with one of my housemate and we took dinner...so i now at home...well...i am now alone at home...sad... :) but i really thks tat matt was temanin me and sms with me...u deserve a great big hugss...hehe...*hugsssss*...well..i guess tat for tonite ntg special anyway...haha....:)

Love,
Evelyn

life tat inccur up and down

2008-11-14T06:18:00.000-08:00

Today it seem so sunny and hot the weather is as same like past few day so as my mood....i wake up i felt lost and i dunno whr is the direction i should move...hmm...well...i felt moody and my eyes seem little bit swollen..haiz...i went class but i was late..so i went to the lecture hall and i went wrong into dk..huh...sad...den i came out of it and my mom call me and i felt lost whn she tokin to me with what she had tok well obviously i did cried and i felt so embarrass so much...hmm..and i went into dk again but now is the right dk...while i am in tthe dk i could not find peace within and i decided to sms to matt and another frenz...huh...i really down tremondously down....hmm..well den i receive their reply and i broke down in crying with my song was playing...well..i did not knw how to tell them and felt sad of it...i just really disappointed...and i told matt abt wat is actually happenin...i tot there is no one around to advice me and etc...hmm...after tokin to matt i felt much ok still stable and i still can move on...hmm...well...after the seasion of tok i ask sum question to the "pro"...well i did get alot of info...while i am walkin back home my mom call me again and she lecture me again and tell me alot of stuff but i still could not stand i and with cryin again...sad...huh..well...thks God thr is no one in house....hmm...den i felt i am so so full whr i could took my lunch at all..huh...well i did took la bcos worried i will be havin gastric so just in case la..and i did not study very well too..hmm...haiz...b4 i went out i tok to alice and she was askin me how am i...well...i shared with her and she had advicing anyway,,,thks alot jie...luvs u..:)...den i went out to my workin plc and reserve number for my frenz b4 proceed to class..well..after little while i whn to class and tutor say she wanna to do exan 1st bcos i one of my class mate wanna go back and rushin for bus...so we had our exam 1st..i took the exam paper and i just dunno how to start everything..hmm...well i look at up prt of the paper and dwn of the paper...and i just do watever i could..haha..lol..den i came back my housemate say wanna go pasar malam wor..so went we they all...huh...guess wat i ate alot....die i am gonna turn fat...sad sad.... :( but i drank two cup of fruit juice was really nice..haha...well one of it are dragon fruit,banana and also mango...well another one is carrot,apple and orange...hehe...nice...lol.den i ate "chao tau fu"....huh..well was ok la but le huh after it very very smelly le...i cant stand it...huh...swt...den i came back around 9 something if i am not wrong la....hehe...well...den at nite was tokin to matt and tell him my problem...:)...so i guess i will had fun in chatting later!!who knws ya!!haha...lol..:)

Love,
Evelyn

2008-11-13T15:24:00.000-08:00

well...i wrote this blog is not want pityness from anyone but i just want to shared wat is actually happenin around through out my life tat all..i dun wan anyone felt i am so pity..tat not the really main point..so sorry i need to say it..so so so sorry...DOWN!!

Wat a day had passes??

2008-11-13T03:50:00.000-08:00

today i woke up was fine and was pretty good i guess..i slept well and i woke up and done my quite time as usual..today passage was tokin to let go everything tat u have now and understand Him more and b4...well i not really wanna let go everything i just worry i will be lonely and i was now...well,i scared seen yesterday but i felt God will give me something even better den..hmm..well i saw matt was on net so just to check it out he was ok and just wanna put some God's word in him so i send some verses..:)..and i nearly late for class den so i rush to class..well reach class i listen and i felt i am not concentrated at all..so i make myself concentrate and i came back...well i listen to the song still again cos i knw i am totally keep think abt the thing tat in my mind...den as usual i went to work till i met Esther again and i felt someone tokin to me tat i need prayer i need alot of prayer...ya..i decided to let go everything especially i could not commit in Christmas nite...hmm..well i approach her to pray for me as i share out i really felt the afraid and scare.. well i just felt i lose everything i had especially the person i could share the most...why all this need to happen at this time i really dunno why???well she started o tell and share with me and started to sing a song to clam me well i started to cried out again...hmm...well and continue she pray for me and i really dunno how to express it out...but just to keep silnt and keep crying..den few of them say u look happy but y u cry all sudden..well really admit i am keep the sad n me well workin u surely need to treat customer well and must remain the smiling rite...:)...so i did it...well i am totally discourage in me lo....i guess tat all la...well i really felt the left out feelin...hmm..i guess i need to get back to study tomorow got CW summore..i dun wanna fail...well i guess i am off now...get to u all my life tomorrow..hopefully will be a nice one ya!!
Love'
Evelyn

A dramatically sad dayz..

2008-11-13T03:22:00.000-08:00

yesterday i woke up everything seem up and down...its just i could not use to it...well i felt myself moody and i just felt i am no not alright..i just felt is not totally me..i am lost...so i decided to bring my bible along to college cos i knew i will need it...so whn i reach to college i sit and listen to lecture till i took my class note i met Esther...she was askin me how am i??i told her i am surviving ad i told wat actually happen yesterday den...and all sudden i felt really really tuff i just cant breath..i dunno wat to do i went back to my sit and i broke down...i am totally off and down..i really dunno wat to do with it...so i took out my bible and read it from a passage taken from psalm...while readin it my tears keep on rolling down just could not control...every time i tot i was ok but i realize i really not...after tat i decided to ask some one for daily bread and i got to borrow it..so i decided to do my quite time with God den...while doin it i started crying again i just could not keep myself control...:( so i start prayin and prayin...after a little while i went in lecture and start listenin to lecture again but i realize i could not concentrate properly...so i listen to song to clam myself but guess wat..i start cryin which really totally worst...i just could not stop everything...i dunno why???huh...sad...so i came back home and den later got alpha and at alpha i share to everyone my testimony...and whn i am back well my frenz was not really ok..i can see tat he is stress up totally stress up with everything i guess..well i felt bad cos i really did not knw how to tel him well but i try to made him happy and etc..i am all those really help..well...matt i believe everything will be ok...i understand how go through i hope i am thr to share ur burden and stress with u....i knw is just a small thing but still willing to give u a hand,shoulder to lean on and rest and also rear to listen..well i knw u will be alright...hope to hear u will be alright soon.. :)well...i felt everything around me seem to be far apart..is this due to i am not followin His command and do not obey Him???hmm..i really worry one day i will totally lost everything include my frenz tat i can share story too...i am worry and now i am off...

The rememberance day..

2008-11-10T19:00:00.000-08:00

The day tat i go through is not really a great day...just felt little miserable and messy on my life..i woke twice one is at 5 something and another is at 8...seem through out the day i dun really slept well i dunno why...i felt really tired and i felt worry too...i just cant understand why and look like everything seem so messy...when i woke up i decided to spend my time with God be i prepared my day to college..so i read the bible and the passage is taken john 15:9-17.. in the bible stated the Father had so loved us, so i love u and His command us to love one others as i had loved u... beside the bible did say that i no longer call u servant, because servant does not know his master's business so He called u as a friend.. all after reading this passage i felt really touch and i can double confirm myself that He had love seen i'm born till today no matter wat..His love to me never changes..and i also felt His love presently where He had send someone or more presentable to called as a friend to comfort, concern, care,support,love,trust, and to keep away from loneliness...i really appreciate so much... Thank you Lord for such a wonderful gift tat u had provided...well, sometimes due to this i felt bad cos i had occupied his time and days where he had no time for himself and in others thing too..even thou he told me not to worry but the feeling worry and afraid are still there..where i really does afraid and worry he will felt annoy and bored with me wish i really does not want it to happen...i just worry i will lose such a friend like him... (admit think a lot)well day passes and time passes everyone did not know wat will happen tomorrow but life still had to go on...through this morning passage too i felt does i really had loved someone and shared His love to others too?? well, ii realize tat i did shared it to certain ppl around but i still felt tat is not enough kua... :( at here i will take the opportunity to say sorry to those ppl and my family.. i felt i had not fully shared the greatest love to them... i am pretty down when i write this blog i just felt of crying out but i had to go class soon... well, today i had keep listening to the song "still" by hillsongs.. seen, i still had little time i also would like to wish my secondary friend happy birthday...even thou she had betray me before but i will still forgive and forget wat she had done to me.. Xin hui happy birthday ya, sorry i am not in malacca to celebrate with ...well, wish u had great memorable birthday with the nurse and doctor that u learn from...hehe.. :) study smart ya and all the best in everything u do.. i wish another friend happy birthday to which is song sing.. i hope he will have a blessed birthday today and all the best in wat he does.. May God bless through out his life... :) well i guess i shall end my blog writing it seem getting longer and longer...haha..hope everyone have fun and enjoy ur day!!

Loves,
Evelyn

The footprints that i leave..

2008-11-10T03:24:00.000-08:00

Times flies day goes by...I am still the same but the feeling in me had changes..From a cheerful turn to be a sad evelyn but i am striving to search back that cheerful and lovely evelyn... :) Hard time and wonderfully time i had before is just not good to taste..so this blog title is "the footprint i leave" where just want to see how i had been and how much i had grow...well thing that happen impossible will be the same cos there will not be a place for u to turn back again..so u still had to go on anyhow...past few days there is alot of thing happening around and it had made me feel so miserable and difficult..but i will really THANKS GOD for he had provide someone to really comfort me and be with me whenever i face problem...well..He also show me an answer to my question and i did broke down to God but not totally cos i really dunno how to fully let go.well, i shall learn how to let go thing this might made me better.. :) till today i am not 100% recover cos thing happen will be happen and i know i shall keep praying and made the changes in problem that occurs.. well,of course one man can't do all show so i know there is someone will always with me... :) the song "still" by hillsongs really touch me alot and it let me know how to really deal with my problem..every time i heard this song i broke down n cried cos realize when i face difficulty i does not go back to God,then keep in my heart... as for today was really fine i guess just feel very tired and feel worry with thing that had not really done and thing and event that coming up... hopefully everything will goes smoothly.. i know God will watch over everything.. :) hope my family are fine and everything goes well.. :) that all for now i guess...

Loves,
Evelyn